01.04.2008
Papa...
There are just some things left unsaid. but i won't squeeze you out just to tell me what it is and so I can't be squeezed out too. Someone told me you cried. hope that it wasn't about the sadness that you have or what I gave or what I did.. hope that it was all about happiness and what you felt by letting the kite go... still pulling it when its losing its flight... you mean so much to me... i am proud of how you molded me (in a way you did great and made a great impact on my life.. this i cannot really articulate in front of you...), mixed emotions in some moments in my life was when i asked if are you happy... and you said you are happy...( you remember the time when all i want is of you to be happy of whatever decision i made that makes me happy? and you said i cannot push that happiness to you becuz its your feelings and you own that feelings..) and i cried so much with mixed emotions... i was much like a little girl given a doll by her father ... or a girl who got some presents from her dad comin' home... it felt like that... more than that. and the thought of, if only my father is alive ... on the second thought i have to live beyond.. let all the past be an example .... that made me strong. I'm happy the way things turned out. thank you so much for the support and for the coming support... I'm so happy having you in my life... thank you for being the father ... i thought i lost. Thank God for giving me you.
(blog12-02-2007 @ multiply)
I'm blessed . I'm 4 weeks pregnant. Lolo ka na naman. (winks!)
Love,
baby
p.s.
I have to go back into writing,much better for me.
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