guilt.. guilt... i've been missing the show of john paul cadiz's ARANGKADA at GMA, that's the cut somewhere in between UNANG HIRIT.. reason: sleepy, becuz im preggy. this is a valid reason?.. whoaaa... i miss a lot of his segments.. and the moment i turn on the tv when i wake up?... ha?... tapos nah?.. OMG... i love you JPC... heheheh, second guilt....i am trying to take anmum ... reason why me not drinking it most of the time?.. i don't like the smell and i feel like im gonna barf... and i feel bloated after.. hope anmumers can read this so that they can have remedy for other mommies to be... so i take capsules to nourish baby hans if i cannot take anmum... and yes im wearing a maternity shirt with words " hormonally challenged"... beat that.. and i feel pretty. harold you hear that?.. i feel pretty!.. heheheand i love you!!.. aw! hubby is so cute when waking up in the morning touching my belly and saying " hello baby!".. yowee... hmmm and i think im lsoing weight.. my baby is eating all im taking in... whooops!.. and he hungers every two hours... hay hoping and praying baby hans will be like his/her Daddy Harold, Daddy Robert, Daddy Richard, Daddy Joel and Daddy Lenj ( waikikikikikikikiki! patay naman ako sa knila! paglihian ba naman!) ha! you are so right my dear harold basta good traits lang.. hahahah... ahhh.. i love foot massages, arms and torso massages... love it love it.. one thing that irks me lately is this... my brain is growing!... that means i have a frequent headache dumdum! and dinagyang is coming and i dunno how am i gonna kill the missing moments with harold, lenj, robert and JPC and the rest of the gangs... please do come over.. lets just have juice and talk and watch movies!... hehehehe
JPC - - try ko ulit tomorrow na di ko ma miss imong arangkada ha... wabshu! hehehe
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
7 weeks pregnant
so this is how my baby looks like now?.and hans is cute.. (by the way this pic is not mine.. its a courtesy of my news for pregnancy weekly)
so its more or less hans looks like this pic for now..
what i feel .. what i felt...
... sluggish, i feel unpretty, i dunno usually what to do what to eat.. basta if i don't like it then i don't like it. i usually look for a place thats calm and peaceful.. no barking dogs, no noisy people(most of the time i don't like nagging people.) .. i hate morning wake ups when hubby would just leave the door open.. ugh.. that i hate lately., and also i still can't sleep well ( you see i sleep most of the time lying on my front, and back flat, ) now i cannot do that.. if i lie on my front as if i can't breathe well and my breast oh my goodness.. BREAST.. my goodness breast! and when i will try lying on my back.. i feel that my tummy is on my neck..(though tummy is not that big, but i just feel like that).. so side lying or head and back is elevated. hmmm very nice.. and that i can drowse me sleep .. no irritating noise.. no slamming opening of door or just plain talking in a high tone. and yes im usually holding on to my patience.
i'm holding on to my patience that is usually i end up with at night. and I pray that i am going to be beautiful! hehheh... that life would still be beautiful for me.. and for all....
so its more or less hans looks like this pic for now..
what i feel .. what i felt...
... sluggish, i feel unpretty, i dunno usually what to do what to eat.. basta if i don't like it then i don't like it. i usually look for a place thats calm and peaceful.. no barking dogs, no noisy people(most of the time i don't like nagging people.) .. i hate morning wake ups when hubby would just leave the door open.. ugh.. that i hate lately., and also i still can't sleep well ( you see i sleep most of the time lying on my front, and back flat, ) now i cannot do that.. if i lie on my front as if i can't breathe well and my breast oh my goodness.. BREAST.. my goodness breast! and when i will try lying on my back.. i feel that my tummy is on my neck..(though tummy is not that big, but i just feel like that).. so side lying or head and back is elevated. hmmm very nice.. and that i can drowse me sleep .. no irritating noise.. no slamming opening of door or just plain talking in a high tone. and yes im usually holding on to my patience.
i'm holding on to my patience that is usually i end up with at night. and I pray that i am going to be beautiful! hehheh... that life would still be beautiful for me.. and for all....
Monday, January 14, 2008
the letter was sent
THIS IS THE ONE I REALLY DID. GUIN PRINT KO PA... HARHARHARHAR...
01.04.2008
Papa...
There are just some things left unsaid. but i won't squeeze you out just to tell me what it is and so I can't be squeezed out too. Someone told me you cried. hope that it wasn't about the sadness that you have or what I gave or what I did.. hope that it was all about happiness and what you felt by letting the kite go... still pulling it when its losing its flight... you mean so much to me... i am proud of how you molded me (in a way you did great and made a great impact on my life.. this i cannot really articulate in front of you...), mixed emotions in some moments in my life was when i asked if are you happy... and you said you are happy...( you remember the time when all i want is of you to be happy of whatever decision i made that makes me happy? and you said i cannot push that happiness to you becuz its your feelings and you own that feelings..) and i cried so much with mixed emotions... i was much like a little girl given a doll by her father ... or a girl who got some presents from her dad comin' home... it felt like that... more than that. and the thought of, if only my father is alive ... on the second thought i have to live beyond.. let all the past be an example .... that made me strong. I'm happy the way things turned out. thank you so much for the support and for the coming support... I'm so happy having you in my life... thank you for being the father ... i thought i lost. Thank God for giving me you.
(blog12-02-2007 @ multiply)
I'm blessed . I'm 4 weeks pregnant. Lolo ka na naman. (winks!)
Love,
baby
p.s.
I have to go back into writing,much better for me.
butanding journal
what i feel ...
1. okey my tummy is like growing, and i find it a little awkward in dressing up, then jeans and shirts are oh my goooollllllssss... kinda so not into me liking... so i usually end up in my draw string pants, polo shirts(lacoste man yah!)... some blouses that i would feel comfortable with.. see HF im not yet wearing belly basics.. kay i think its way too early to wear one. heheheh maybe next week?.. and then mornign sickness here it comes... i love hubby's perfume the one he's been using since he was in highschool( he told me so) i find it so sexy to him but elk! lately i hate the smell fo it that i even puked. oh my God'... so this is the blessing of a mom that prepares her for the next season of motherhood. you got to learn the hard way of how much you have to push the thing that you love the most... ahhhh loving one's self.. hehehe so i puked and hated the smell.. see my nose is sensitive... even tot he smokers?.. oh my goweyyy... hate ko na smokers smells... heheh hay.. never ko man yah na smell sila lenj and harold being a smoker to be smelt like an ashtray... they're clean man yah and knows their limit. ( isingit ba naman..) so muna ang akun gina binatayag subong... plus and pwerte ko nga kahidlaw sa taga roxas.. huhuhu...
2. food... i eat anything and what comes to my head... but sometimes the moment the food is right their and then in front of me ... ewe! im not ven gonna taste even a bit fo it... funny ... i stop for a while drinking anmum .. why?.. you ask me why?.. the thought of it even makes me like barf... huhuhu .... so like go back to capsules to nourish my baby hans.
3. body changes and everything... these two pomegranate is heavy and it gives me back an ache ... aches everywhere... arghhh.... and then
4... i find it hard to sleep straight just sleep straight... and would love hubby to lightly slowly rub my back that puts me to sleep...
so this is the journal of me.. the butanding.. thus will be updated from time to time.. depende sa mood ko subong kay the longer i stay sa pc or laptop makes me feel dizzy.. i would prefer sleep and go bummming around.... and sleep and sleep and munch... and sleep.... butanding.
1. okey my tummy is like growing, and i find it a little awkward in dressing up, then jeans and shirts are oh my goooollllllssss... kinda so not into me liking... so i usually end up in my draw string pants, polo shirts(lacoste man yah!)... some blouses that i would feel comfortable with.. see HF im not yet wearing belly basics.. kay i think its way too early to wear one. heheheh maybe next week?.. and then mornign sickness here it comes... i love hubby's perfume the one he's been using since he was in highschool( he told me so) i find it so sexy to him but elk! lately i hate the smell fo it that i even puked. oh my God'... so this is the blessing of a mom that prepares her for the next season of motherhood. you got to learn the hard way of how much you have to push the thing that you love the most... ahhhh loving one's self.. hehehe so i puked and hated the smell.. see my nose is sensitive... even tot he smokers?.. oh my goweyyy... hate ko na smokers smells... heheh hay.. never ko man yah na smell sila lenj and harold being a smoker to be smelt like an ashtray... they're clean man yah and knows their limit. ( isingit ba naman..) so muna ang akun gina binatayag subong... plus and pwerte ko nga kahidlaw sa taga roxas.. huhuhu...
2. food... i eat anything and what comes to my head... but sometimes the moment the food is right their and then in front of me ... ewe! im not ven gonna taste even a bit fo it... funny ... i stop for a while drinking anmum .. why?.. you ask me why?.. the thought of it even makes me like barf... huhuhu .... so like go back to capsules to nourish my baby hans.
3. body changes and everything... these two pomegranate is heavy and it gives me back an ache ... aches everywhere... arghhh.... and then
4... i find it hard to sleep straight just sleep straight... and would love hubby to lightly slowly rub my back that puts me to sleep...
so this is the journal of me.. the butanding.. thus will be updated from time to time.. depende sa mood ko subong kay the longer i stay sa pc or laptop makes me feel dizzy.. i would prefer sleep and go bummming around.... and sleep and sleep and munch... and sleep.... butanding.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
bohooooo
see im like 6 weeks preganat and hay i feel grumpy sometimes.. and i feel the tug of roxas soo much.. it gets under my nerves the knack of wanting to leave the city and be in a quiet nice serene place... but the kinda humpy travelling is not permitted by my OB ---
now the not so problem arises when i decided to go for another OBGYN.. so i went to a male OBGYN harharhar.. MALE>>> hoy! BF knew naman and the male doc is quite kidna good -- personality wise.. he is soo cowboy... but just don't know cowboy he could be ... harharhar specs of speculations ahh he is good.. especially if he is going to give me the best professional fee ever... and he did!... so let me see... if the lady OB is not avail by the time i hmmmphf! this baby then male OB is in... or vice versa... still my hans (this i call to my baby growing) for now is in the size of a seed of a jackfruit.. see.. how cutiee... hmmm and yes i have some sickness but i dare not to put that in my brain ... the most violent scream in my head is roxas. harharharhar... and so the calls of harold and some texts of lenj and the silence of robert heals.. at least it does.
and so hans is growing still my 2nd OB which is male suggest that i should go for serum test so i did.. and bear the pain of the in jection.. and also to the other test for HEPA etc etc blood typing ek ek ek basta isa lang mahambal ko masakit and tuslok sg injection and i hate it.
AND FOR NOW I HAVE TO PAUSE KAY DAW GALINGIN ULO KO.
by the way nainit guid ko kay wala na sg paulo coelho nga books avail sa NB...
and it sucks!
now the not so problem arises when i decided to go for another OBGYN.. so i went to a male OBGYN harharhar.. MALE>>> hoy! BF knew naman and the male doc is quite kidna good -- personality wise.. he is soo cowboy... but just don't know cowboy he could be ... harharhar specs of speculations ahh he is good.. especially if he is going to give me the best professional fee ever... and he did!... so let me see... if the lady OB is not avail by the time i hmmmphf! this baby then male OB is in... or vice versa... still my hans (this i call to my baby growing) for now is in the size of a seed of a jackfruit.. see.. how cutiee... hmmm and yes i have some sickness but i dare not to put that in my brain ... the most violent scream in my head is roxas. harharharhar... and so the calls of harold and some texts of lenj and the silence of robert heals.. at least it does.
and so hans is growing still my 2nd OB which is male suggest that i should go for serum test so i did.. and bear the pain of the in jection.. and also to the other test for HEPA etc etc blood typing ek ek ek basta isa lang mahambal ko masakit and tuslok sg injection and i hate it.
AND FOR NOW I HAVE TO PAUSE KAY DAW GALINGIN ULO KO.
by the way nainit guid ko kay wala na sg paulo coelho nga books avail sa NB...
and it sucks!
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