20th.....

okey its the 20th day of november today and im like 8 days to go from my day....
what am i thinkng?......

i feel kinda fat. that is a big problem ..... since everyone knew that im big. so how could i say that im fat?... eng! im big fat!

i feel like a bunny rabbit in alice in wonderland so many things to do such little time have... still i beleive in the what we call grace... whooooo.... so i am holding on to that. but i don't have grace i only have renz and marie... so grateful for them both...

though sometimes renz makes me feel a bit meeting of my eyebrows and do raises my other brows.. still she is cute.. she is so renz. that makes her the renz i know like ten years ago?... aw noh.... eleven years ago....

she's been there for me eversince then.. ahhh she is soo renz... puts on spices on my days and even sometimes she makes it to the point of being cute. heheheh loveit!

marie... the ever brainy one... the cold stirrer i have during the time of being in heat... that would make me feel calm and cold. like her mom my other mommy... (winnks!) she knows how to put on the table cloth and there.... sob! and realize whatever there is to be...

goes one with my TPL friends... have done some blogs for them already so no need to stack it here again... they know they are someone special to me.. and always there to remind me and there to be my hand to hold on to and a shirt where i can sneeze my bugger! ... heeh joke! but sure they have been always an open arms .... also mommies.. and daddies i have... eventhough i had some funny and failed relationships... ahhh they have been like.. " segi alng whats best is yet to come or if its for you then it is for you... if not then act as if nothing happend.

hay.... 8 more days and i can still feel the two minds of what will happen to these?...
my friends.... my extended family..... heheeh... and then i have come to the conclusion of
they are still my friends ... i will always be the same... though there will come some changes but i know its for like another chapter of life i am trudging... trailing.... trekking... flying.... sailing on.... they will always be part of me... they are one of the important persons God has included in my beautiful love story... called LIFE....

daw mahibi ako... five years ago.. i have this dellima of wanting much of a baby... my own baby... bore by me... and now mixed... i dunno how am i gonna react... how am i gonna carry the baby in my womb... or what what what.... i know i have the ability to take care and be a great mom if not to be great at least i have to stand better on that coming another chapter of my life.... what if i cannot have a baby?... these some sorts of questions cyclones my head... still i pause and pray and ask for God's greatest grace and blessings, and for my tatay to guide me thru... i know that he has been a wonderful father to me... the reason why i was never afraid to face the realities and chalenges of life...

.... 8 days to go......

week before....

last monday me and bff decided to go to cebu on RORO ... just for an overnight road trip... yes again. and this time is like special... i am going to be with my brother... so it was just the three of us.
so off to dumangas we went at around 9pm off to bacolod and then road trip to san carlos and then off from san carlos to toledo and then road trip to cebu city... the idea is to swap the honda car to a revo car... hanep the trip ever. its like the scenery are to die for...
yeah ... i've been climbing such mountains do biking around... and roam the city and urbans and some places that i know nobody or none can appreciate... but this trip was like... hellish the best... the highest road trip ever... 3000+ above sea level... zero visibility... that is sooo great!... to die for exhilarating experience...

so this blog was like held up high on the purpose of I'm busy over the wedding thing. not that busy but you know a simple holding up my hands over my face over coffee and then thinking of "this is it"!

and then i get to read a friends blog, so its like.. i dunno ... hmmm perhaps the idea of world peace is like a loong way to go.. but still im liking the idea of world peace...

so i went to roxas for MYMP- yep.. maldita me did not took the time of watching it conveniently here in iloilo, reasons...

last month, i said yes to the invitation done by emilio and also swooned by harold and robert... so it would be like despidida for me?... haha... but then i know they know that....
so i went... yeah yeah.... lah blah... robert did paid for my tickets.... hihihi and kinda ohmy! okey... he is in parish na kasi... but then it is also good to be helpless at times. argh!...

so we went MYMP night.. yep and we did had the fun of "do you remember"... jovita fuentes' as glen would say to us.,. and then we had some munchin' at ninos.. shiet that is always a yummy treat for me.. bisan bloated ako after... its a sin for me in eating nino's as i get bloated... and yep pizzas and pastas.. does wonders over bellysious!..

so i got to spend time with HF, RA, LA and GB... sosyalan.. talks over jovita fuentes' drama in life... hmmm they're fun and with great talents...

long overdue this blog of mine... sorry.. im kinda busy with lots still i am trying to keep up...

love you astro!

Stardust - Rule the World.. by take that..

You light, the skies up above me
A star, so bright you blind me
Don't close your eyes
Don't fade away
Don't fade away

Yeh you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl, we can rule the world
Yeh you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side, we can rule the world.

If walls, break down, I will come for you
If angels cry, oh I'll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now

Yeh you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl, we can rule the world
Yeh you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side, we can rule the world.

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you,

Yeh you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl, we can rule the world
Yeh you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side, we can rule the world.

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

yippeee yayooo

yipee yayo yippe yay0 yippe yayo...

i went to watch stardust with sisil and xtian.. and i got this quote... cute quotes...
A philosopher once asked,

"Are we human because we gaze at the stars, or do we gaze at them because we are human?" Pointless, really...”Do the stars gaze back?" Now *that's* a question.

about love..

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

its a great movie... i love it ... feel good movie...

you should watch it... harold will watch watch... they will... so you should too...

i love you

harold.... hunny bunnies!

i want surprises.. so i thought i will be surprised but then how can it be?... hah!...

so im planning to have this kind of line up

when christian was courting me... so he as like humming this song and then playing this music sa computer . . .
so i'll have to say i love you in a song... by jim croce
Of all the things ... by dennis lambert rev by xtian bautista
and yes we both love the song what a wonderful world by louis armstrong heard it soo right by rod stewart... always on your side by sting and Sheryl crow.. ( this i have to deal with my cousin pa if she can do this if not i will do this! hahaahahha!!) and yes the finale of course is the prayer.. hahhhh..... its up to you if you want it kinda operatic or what... still i know you are at your best... you always do... or else di ka naman katulog...perhaps you can do fly me to the moon ..... or
THAT'S ALL.. this is cute....

after this you called me up and then all of sudden i caught myself like in a daze of what the... stunned... caught in between... feelings... argh... i know you make me feel brand new.. with just one call and i feel so... relaxed. i know something.. betcha you don't wanna know .... ahaiz...
swimming ta.... i feel like i wanna just slouch by the beach.. by the pool... clock watching .... in love.

and guess what, to let the guest settle down inside the church i will play ryan cayabyab's like children dancing in the rain with no clothes on.... weeee..... relaxin'

so whatchatink?

my walk the aisle will be pachelbel canon in D.. still im looking for the full song and cute ang acapella...
though yes cute ang concierto but then relaxin'ang acapella
hmmm.... and some love story of harry potter for bff's intro...
mwuah! i heart you harold! sing it!!
oh by the way produce me abi minus one of " birthday song"... i wish you a happy birthday.... nahhananhh...
the red ribbon thingy... please... i heart you!mwuah.... 

friday hussle...

home - shop - mall - bank - couturière - seminary - shop - mall - home -

that is my Friday of November 9, 2007 - - still wanting to have the time of going out of town .. but then i cannot.. for the first time i cannot squeeze it - just squeeze it in my schedule. i got two mobile phones with me. very useful and yes to its maximum capacity of communication. text everyone. the moment i wake up. the time i close my eyes. cellphone gives me a sort of a security --- since I have been like living alone for the past 5 years, just this year my bro moved in with me and then like three weeks from now... I'm getting hitched!.. so yes i am still secured with the way my mobile phone turned out.

random text ~~~
sheet! Jacob sabta ang phone.... "hi! dear, ang imo transcript of records la pa iya, la kuno ma sign ni Ryan Zerrrr... hai panu ina ang enrollment mo?"
"ahh okey te balikun ko lang dre buwas ... huo ari ako sa sem subong.. hay ambot sa kay ramona nga ini ah... " jakomwatan!"

"okey bim halong, u take care ha.... mwuah!"

" regrds kay LR - - pakabuot kamu ha.. "

"hello dear, where ka? hidlaw man ta sa imo bah... huhuhuhu"
" ngek! after sem ari ko di subong, will go back to shop... "
" attend ka debut ha im so wanting to see you and talk to you!!!"

" day di na ko ka joke gapinangakig na sya ya kay sobra na guid ina kuno ya"

"hi, sir v... ask ko rates for videography.."

" 4 wedding, Theresa"

" i don't know ask abi Dora"

" inquire abi sa rob kun tagpila kay lagson ko"

"video lang na? no pics?.. will give info"

" la kuno record hambal king"

------- text messages sent out while waiting for the king kong!... dammit!

and then i ge tto smile when i thought of astro. i have to keep that astro handy inorder for me to be in place and sound.... heheheeh...
back in reality... i miss them much...

asking me self...

what i want to happen by January ...
i want to learn how canon dslr rebel works.. so like im going to learn that... ask bff...

what i want to happen by march...
i will take the time off for papa's anniversary.
i wonder what happen to the tour??? pilgrim????

what i want to happen in april or may....
summer clay modeling class... yehey!!!!
go trip to batanggas with TPL and BFF -- he has to go with me especially if i am preggy...
he wants me to be preggy by that time...
no reaction. im still clueless if i can. i think i can.. heheeh nugon sg behind ko kung indi. di bla hunny bunny!

id rather

i thought marie's going to do a blog about mariel and kiki but then she said she'd rather sleep...
i was wating for that marie....

and then i thought of what happen to my blog friend... how is my friend? hardcore duty again? oh well.. what can we do about it...

hay JC's at st. paul's hospital again confined... dang this asthma he has... and me yes argggg... hate this on and off sore throat i have and upper respiratory blah blah blah...

and then i had so much fun with road trip .. i called it road trip .. but we did went to suhot cave never entered ... its raining shiet! effin! we end up slumbering inside the tourism office the night through and then off to kalibo the next day.. and bora and then please refer to my multiply read my road trip blog ... for you to ow why effin shit ang kalibo trip.

and then on my way home... oh my... drawn by roxas ...but settled on i have to go back to iloilo..... so im back while others were left kay ma caving pa sila sa malay aklan mo... te luoy lang kami ya?... huhuhu next lang pictures sa multiply ko alng kay effin mand re...
hey friend how are you?.... hows life treating you?

hey harold i love you! wahahahaha!!!!
bf lapit na lng~!~~~~..... i heart you!