let me think... some thoughts.. random thoughts,

For everything there is a season,

And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace(Ecclesiastes 3:1-8)

human as i am i know i have some inadequacies, and i know too how i strive to make up for those. i too feel pain, i tool feel the need of my self, i too loose my self and i need to find my self.

i have and i can offer much and now im asking please let me be for a while.

if not for me please be it for my daughter and son...

oftentimes i drown myself to an insecurity no one dared ask me how i have gotten there,

but here i tell you how.

because you never know,

you never even gave me the second thought,

you never gave me a chance.

you've been unfair.

you never been fair to us.

but its okey i have to live with that and ponder that i may never ... i shall never do that.

ahh such is life for me perhaps.

but i never raised my hand just to surrender the flag mainly because i belong to the bottom pit.

even the ants has something to say, its just that they are never heard.

even the fly has something to say its just that no one understand

and i even has something to say its just no one want to hear, because im at the bottm pit.

the heart has its reason which reason knows nothing of.

i know nothing..... that makes sense.

i wish i never knew.

and for everything there is a season.

let me cry for that. let me grasp the pure essence of what really lies behind.

let me be let me be let me be.

wrapping up the week as early this afternoon

4.43pm, was thinking of making a blog to commemorate a friend who died 12-08-2009 @ 8.27am, while playing cafe' world... he leveled up.. he was a good person, one who just want to do good in whatever in life.... MVG rest in peace, you are now in the hands of our dear Lord, ...
here we go! again i have to go back to other sites i have visited before, why?.. becuz im expecting a boy is that a question that needs to be answered?.. oh well yeah... oh well it snot actually have to but hey my being mother asks me to do so. and so i browsed.... to be honest i have been browsing since like two days already, last sunday i was checking the price of the playtex drop-in liners becuz i purchased this playtext drop ins and it comes only like 5 liners for each size (4oz & 8oz) why liners?.. hello you know i have a forecast of midyear next year im going to be like this travelling mom or was planning of yeah months old Duke and 2 year old Princess will be out of towners every now and then, OMG yeah... and that is a very good motivation perhaps for a very squirmy mommy like me ( im no worm mother ati! its just that i want to get my ass moving!) heheheh, so those drop in liners i thought are a very good one to have, and i think its costs cheap, and have discussed it already with hubby and yeah he said it is much better than bringing all the bottles and cleaning them every now and then and sterilizing them, ha!.. now i feel like a celebrity with those handy drop ins... both Duke and Princess will be happy with this.. Princess already made a mess out of that box, when i was inspecting it and kinda like the tits. ahahah... and so the amazon dot com is well browsed by me, the playtex site also, and then the babies r us site, since im looking for a nice onesies for the baby boy, though princess onesies are kinda in good condition, but ain't Baby Duke gets to have good ones too right?... Princess had some good ones too even though Carlo gave away his newborn shirts and sock and caps and mittens... each one deserves something special too... and so that justifies my browsing and my beg-time to hubby, ahihihi, hmmm my hunny bunny sister, its all up to her, she knows whats best usually even though i don't ask, she spoils me much. yeah. (its not that im thinking she is going to spoil me again but hey! im just being honest that she does!) if i demand she says outright if its not good or what... she is practically a magical one!... - this note aint to fatten up your ears hunny bunny but its just the truth... you've been a very dotting aunt to Princess and you spoiled her too much .. see we still have some stuffs until we reach our terrible two's... you spoil me too... hihihi, and then toinkS!.... i miss you. on the other hand, its not just Princess she spoils i think all of the kids... she loves kids im sure... she just don't like the idea of baby alive!.. hahahh ...
and then have noticed that baby boys' apparels are somewhat no not boring but yeah boring!. haahahah.... pants, shirts, polo, shorts, green blue, brown, white, red.. long sleeves... but im pretty sure Duke will still look uber cute in whatever, she kicks so well inside and tumbles .. its like im going to have another UFC player coming and a muay thai player... so Tito Yayo, you better practice well there in UK so that you'll be playing in the fields when you get here...
and so i have to continue browsing....

barbie's cradle - playing in my iPod....
5.08pm ------

Hello everybody..... and so she waves her hand... those are funky colored squares that changes its color... yah, i think harold has one cutie one with clock on... i remember... we're just making and feeling crazy @ MOP...

beach

just trying to have fun at the beach when she noticed that its sand... and it might have felt a abit strange to her, hahah she squirmed!...
this is a 20pesos beach....