goodmorning!!!!

that's the ussual routine people would hear from me whenever i come out of my room and the gate of my home be it a tri-sikad driver or just a plain neighborhood upto the place where i am supposed to be at....
this morning i took my bike with me and that was the transportation of the day... save cost of almost 100 pesos for today.... and am beginning to feel good about it again.. since i don't feel that much of heart breakin' health prob of mine.... i dunno what i did but i knew i shoved it all off down the drain (i hope!)hmmmmm.... i got to smile at last!!! wow!!! i got that very cute smile in my head down to my cheeks and phw!!! what a lovely night!!! i did made it straight 9hours of sleep..... i need that....
traffic infront of the office due to unresolved problem of traffic eh.... ohey!!! and the goverment has been on that prob eversince.... i don;t have thoughts about love and relationship for now becuz i don't have that for now... i dunno where it gone... perhaps its just there waiting to be digged!!!! i love you!!! that's all i know!!!

stop stop stop

to my government!!!! please!!!!
STOP DESTROYING FORESTS!
----SUPPORT A NATIONWIDE TOTAL COMMERCIAL LOG BAN IN NATURAL FORESTS
----STOP MINING IN OUR REMAINING FOREST AREAS AND PLANT NATIVE TREES
----DEVELOP AND SUPPORT SUSTAINABLE LIVELIHOOD OPTIONS FOR POOR UPLAND FOREST DWELLERS
----INCREASE BUDGET FOR COMMUNITY-BASED FOREST MANAGEMENT, WATERSHED PROTECTION, AND PROTECTED AREA MANAGEMENT .......

it has been freely given so please lets take care of it! its the last.... what if nature lashes back????

please..... please...... help us preserve.... and lets stop destroying our forest....

now what!

To be stupid, selfish and have good health are three requirements for happiness.

Though if stupidity is lacking all is lost.

If I would have the time to re think and re evaluate feeling and that life with the other, I could be happy, so sorry to say these but time is not even on my side. Life is simply extraordinary to live but love is more amazingly, fragile and very complex that one needs to decide as to what he really wants. Everyone is given that opportunity to do so. It’s a gift.

I am willing to take whatever circumstances that will come and hoping and praying that could and I will overcome such.

I am happy. With regards to my friend, he made a difference to my life and to my being.

the curse of being F!

hell yeah!!! i woke up as early as 6am this morning to make that very good ample time to prepare for my scheduled meeting at 9am. And whoa!!! i don't feel good about my being.... i am not that very good when it comes to being on time but usually i make it a point to be on time... in 10 scheduled meeting im positively on time 45%... hehehehe!!! flashbang!!! i was late 45minutes
becuz i was sucked up by my t.v. for which my higher boss calls it boob tube! took me almost 30min to wash myself, 15min to eat my breakfast that includes purefoods tender juicy hotdog(darn it!!! yaya did not cook it well!) boneless milkfish and rice... yeah no sunny side up or boiled eggs for me.... and them gulped a bottle of water to finish it all up ... brushed my teeth... shake my hair then put some powder, some eyeshadow and cheek tints lip gloss and spritz some estee' lauder (during this time still boob tube is on and been laughing and singing becuz it entertains me much that i knocked off the time..) then pick my black bag then off to meeting.... and yeah my boss is late and we all know that everybody has its reason ..... hmmm then start the meeting.... boring........ called up some clients just to avoid the fairy of boringness and the fairy of sleepyhead.... and then off for lunch with partner so i left the meeting earlier. great conversation with my partner over lunch, then i felt way too sleepy again... hmpf! what's going on with me??? my fairy sleepyhead did something again... i gained much weight since i haven't been on my bike lately for nearly 3weeks now and so i feel fatso!....

perhaps this will do.... this is love??? is it??

Love is like magic
And it always will be.
For love still remains
Life's sweet mystery!!
Love works in ways
That are wondrous and strange
And there's nothing in life
That love cannot change!!
Love can transform
The most commonplace
Into beauty and splendor
And sweetness and grace.
Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind!!
Love is the answer
That everyone seeks...
Love is the language,
That every heart speaks.
Love can't be bought,
It is priceless and free,
Love, like pure magic,
Is life's sweet mystery!!

- Helen Steiner Rice

of living in love....

We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive,
where every sense is heightened,
and every emotion is magnified.
Our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,
but that doesn't diminish its value,
because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds
and warming your soul.


---see this i got this from an unknown person..... who could have iumagined such a very simple words can make someone's heart beat fast???

even if we fail in love it is still love..... well i think it would be different if you were an opportunist in love.....
love is complex.....

i don't want to comment....

To be stupid, selfish and have good health are three requirements for happiness.

Though if stupidity is lacking all is lost.

If I would have the time to re think and re evaluates feeling and that life with this man, I could be happy, so sorry to say these but time is not even on my side. Life is simply extraordinary to live but love is more amazingly, fragile and very complex that one needs to decide as to what he really wants. Everyone is given that opportunity to do so. It’s a gift.

I am willing to take whatever circumstances that will come and hoping and praying that I could and I will overcome such.

I am happy. With regards to my friend, he made a difference to my life and to my being.

every season has its time......

and every time has its reason....

which reason knows nothing!

life is ...... love is.....making us all crazy!

send it now....

This is so very beautiful... i really love this song, the context and how it is being sung by sting...

SEND YOUR LOVE

Finding the world in the smallness of a grain of sand
And holding infinities in the palm of your hand
And Heaven's realms in the seedlings of this tiny flower
And eternities in the space of a single hour

Send your love into the future
Send your love into the distant dawn

Inside your mind is a relay station
A mission probe into the unknowing
We send a seed to a distant future
Then we can watch the galaxies growing

This ain't no time for doubting your power
This ain't no time for hiding your care
You're climbing down from an ivory tower
You've got a stake in the world we ought to share

You see the stars are moving so slowly
But still the earth is moving so fast
Can't you see the moon is so lonely
She's still trapped in the pain of the past

This is the time of the worlds colliding
This is the time of kingdoms falling
This is the time of the worlds dividing
Time to heed your call

Send your love into the future
Send your precious love into some distant time
And fix that wounded planet with the love of your healing
Send your love

Send your love

There's no religion but sex and music
There's no religion but sound and dancing
There's no religion but line and color
There's no religion but sacred trance

There's no religion but the endless ocean
There's no religion but the moon and stars
There's no religion but time and motion
There's no religion, just tribal scars

Throw a pebble in and watch the ocean
See the ripples vanish in the distance
It's just the same with all the emotions
It's just the same in every instance

There's no religion but the joys of rhythm
There's no religion but the rites of Spring
There's no religion in the path of hate
No prayer but the one I sing

Send your love into the future
Send your precious love into some distant time
And fix that wounded planet with the love of your healing
Send your love
Send your love

There's no religion but sex and music
There's no religion that's right or winning
There's no religion in the path of hatred
Ain't no prayer but the one I'm singing

Send your love
Send your love

what??

i could not imagine myself having these, but one thing i want is this.... whatever it may be i don't want to know if any of you wanted me alive then let me be, if anyone of you wanted me dead... its up to you. whatever is going on with me or with my health i don't want to know, just give the medication that is necessary if you want, i will take it wholeheartedly, but if im hopeless pls don't tell me .... i want to live my life as though nothing is happening so as for me not to be bothered of what is the reality... that's all i ask.
but if there would be a chance of me knowing what lies ahead of me, then what else can i do.... i'll take it for life is just like that!!! you win some you lose some....
im happy.... im alive..... i just love what i made of myself and what else is out there.... what an imperfection that lies beyond.... only in our imperfection that we are perfected..... yes....
we perfect what is imperfect..... i hope i am doing it perfectly.....
God is so brilliant!

and another.......

for once i could not believe..... for once i dare not....... for the last time.... i know somet things happens becuz it has its purpose.... sometimes we wouldn't even know what its' purpose.... but there is..... ..

I love her eversince... not simply an ordinary love but something better than everyone else think. A love that doesn't end... and even if we don't see each other the love that we have will still be there.

But I think i need to clarify something here... baby is not confused as far as i am concerned. I'm not even in pursuit for something that would ruin what she has right now.

I was in the wrong position then when she came into my life and i never wanted to be branded as double crosser. All i knew that time was, my happiness was overwhelming when we were together. Good thing though we were able to talk recently and clarify those issues and made clearer the love that we have for each other.

Nothing to worry, my friend I will never ever hurt your sister nor do anything that would make her sad. Instead I promise to be always there for her whenever she needs me just like what she did to me for years now. All I want for her is to be happy even if i'm not part of it.

I am now preparing myself for early retirement from this company. For about 7 years as school administrator I think i have done enough for everybody. I am now up for something that would bring me happiness like no other.... i think i'm meant for priesthood.

life....love.....relationship

this is the letter sent to my sister from my friend.... i cannot comment on this letter since, i know somehow he had made a difference and made an impact on my being.... my existence.... of how i lived my life..... of how i handled things ..... he's one great guy!

I couldn't ask for more. She is just too perfect for me. She has a very sexy and beautiful brain, too. Had I made the right decision then for the sake of true love then we could have made a perfect family... by now perhaps we already have 2 kids who sensibly keep both of us busy. However, things are not the same anymore these days with her and I respect her as such. In fact, I really mean to marry her but u know life has gone farther with her and it's just too hard to catch up. Although lately we shared some precious moments together but it doesn't change the idea. Know what, we are still certain of our feelings for each other but perhaps due to our emotional stability we can set aside those unnecessary moronic acts that could create havoc in her relationship. we are happy, very happy... in my case it's somehow a compensating acts of love that should have been done long time ago. i don't want to blame anyone but circumstance... the certainty of our feelings before were so strong... it's just that people around us would not comprehend nor understand if things were taken to its truest sense and love would be the center of it all... question then was how would tita react? what would fr.tito think about me? i was so hesitant to go out and declare my love publicly... besides, i was very very insecured about your family then... and fr.tito as my former formator knew the reason why i went out of the seminary tapos... all of a sudden here i am taking his favorite niece as my girlfriend...??? common..... but it didn't change the certainty of that love... because even until now we both know we still love each other through and through...

One thing I regret for life is this I was not so firm about my feelings towards her before... this time i'm thinking what if

26th year...

on my 26th year of existence, i never thought i could be this ever grateful to the Giver of life (GOD) since i know that i am fully aware that i am a sinful woman.. hahah! He was this ever been loving, full of patience for my human errors(which sometimes i know that indeed its a sin but then i still continue doing it) but then i know i never missed(God forgive me!!)i never missed love, i love life ... love to its fullest sense of being, one with the world, i love becuz i feel and i think that it is imperative or peremptory to love since i am a human being who is fully aware that i am capable.... to love and being loved in return...being human we are bound to love, we are very capable to love, to embrace its existence to share its exquisiteness, to have a slice of its uniqueness.... one need not look for it, its only existence lies within us.... hhaaa... love love love....its up to you on how you're going to deal with it....if you miss love then you miss life!