sleep brain sleep ...

what the.. who the... ahh tired of photography..
nign!... i was tired i got tired.. damnit..
love the photo ops at JC's birthday.. i took loads of photo..
yay!.. 250 ?
in high resolution..
no wonder camera decided to blink battery...
ahihih
love my pics with jollibee
funny.. im a mcdonald's grabbee
oh well its JC's birthday so his choice
that was bad... he got scared.
princess gumsy smiles...
yowzah..
took awhile of forgetting others already
and suddenly poppings popcorns came out
what the f..
ouch! toothaches!
that choco caramel "sinful" cake is ymmiest
elizabeth is now with robert.. okey she is betty
lenj got his card reader soooprise!
harold got none... and he gotten serious as told by robert
so serious he forgot me.
no thoughts? got busied....
miss my everything
renz got.. who?
princess got me.. ohmy she is mine!
actually i just want to tell my brain to shut off...
no one sings me lullabies...


decada trainta an intro to kwarenta! yikes.. me not in ahurry im only 26 years old!
hahaha
love you sissy....
thank you for the chin ups.
and taking the gray skies in my eyes!


should go back to sleep.
love you honey bunny...
4.32am

will there be?

i am entering my 30th

in a few months i'll be

aw! that sounds kinda durrr.

hugada trainta!

come across pinky's blog about obama's letter to his kids,

yes touching and very comforting words from a father.... ay grabeh... basta words from your father... its like having a cup of coffee and a cigarette being lit and at the same time crunching yer eyebrows and thinking beyond ... still pondering  what is it really that makes our or rather my heart melt everytime i hear our or my father words of wisdoms.. his angst and bravery.. trying to meet all the odds for the family at the same time sturggling for his needs, though for others it was such a lame and not nicely done.. but he has his way... its his way.. understanding him sometimes cracks up our world but you know in a limitless love life i have i learned to understand not being a brat (was I?).. its his way of life. 

back to obama...

will there be an OBAMA in our country?. 

its neraly 30years and that i have known that this country of mine longs for that

everytime we have a new president we look for change...

its seems that only us filipino kmnows too well what change is ?

change is change!

thats why we always want change!

hahah maybe filipinos are female?... ahihihi ako nga mismo gusto na change

sino kaya pwede? we filipinos have been praying for change....

if only we could be one with what we really realy need... and that is change maybe it could

but who will unite us?... sumasakit na ulo ko... come what may...

 life is hard - - - let us not make it harder

pray... pray... all the we need in this life and afterlife....

whatever it is prayer!....

seek His comfort... after all we are filipino... we survive!.. we can....

run down thots

makakulugmat.
kahindik hindik.
karumaldumal.
ayun sa SOCO.. bling!

eva fonda....
at ako ang nag iisang dyosa...

i hate the jake's closet movie
it gets to nowhere
or i just don't understand it.

yikes
put my baby to sleep
very colorful baby
she is wearing the pink nappy whoa! with velcro!

and ate my breakfast
kalo kalo with kalkag--- this words.. kalkag!
and lamayo nga fish.. i forgot the name though.
yummy..
cold cold weather
no sunshine
very cold cloudy days
yikes..
low battery ang cp ko
yep! got yah roaming already.

got these thought of bitching over the curly girl.
she's such a looser bitch.
i hate her guts.
anu ka hello?>\
ang tanga mo eneng!...
sabi ni lola basyang!
i forgot lola basyang does not make mulay on her books...
ay naku sabi yan ni basyun!
hahah not basyang!

okey beth will have his mini pin named after elizabeth
haiks!.. love that name beth!
you no like ellen?
yup its tombapatis.. harharhar
but its cute though
since her mom ( im sure her mom is paris!)
is tombapatis then with crissy (crissy is paris' mom!)
yikes!
thats the life of a dawgs!

elizabeth is a gift from us me and hubby
for bobeth... bobeth is bobeth!... hehehehe
cute...
happy birthday beth!...soooo late!

next!
lenj yup we got to see each other on the 20th and that's a tuesday.
will bringing along princess
she's a nicey lil' girl no fuzz or whatever
very cooperative.. hehehe

pamahiin?
next..
exit.
buzz..
who the f*&%&$ is buzzing at this time?

after all this time.. im still

it would be nice to think that i have been in a mode of silence
at one point i have to cry it out loud
several times i have to cry in front of my husband and my child
trying to understand
still i am trying
i have to stop whatever im doing
just to nurture the hurt
i am tired of crying, but i cannot help it
i busied myself but after all its done i cry
i keep my sanity intact with princess
she's all i got that's all i could say
and im trying to be so protective of her
not to experience what i am going through
i pray to God to keep her safe all through

im at my weakest point
im at my saddest part of life
im at my loneliest time..
same as i have experienced death of a love one,

i can never question its existence but i know there is a purpose

i thought all the while i could get through
but then it was bad shot

i wanted to gather everything
to make everything be everything
i wanted to let it be, have done this
perhaps i have had enough
its time to move on
i was discourage
and learned well
hatred swells....
and it does still
if only the people around are the same as me
trying to understand
trying to ask what happen
trying to understand why i have done that
but then yes its a simple life with a complicated frosting
that is being judge according to theirs
judging because we think others thinks like us
commenting without even trying to ask what happened
judging without even asking the cause
because i was vulnerable
i was hurt

if i don't have a heart that hurts
if i don't have a mind that thinks and analyzes
if i don't have these body to carry things out
what my heart and my mind is telling me...
life is a no brainer kind of game.

no one gets hurt....
no one gets weak.

sorry i got a heart and a mind....
so i get hurt and i got weak.

and i got my pride.
its a long process for me the way i see it
im holding on to no one
im still thinking positively
just let me be
let me go
let me heal the hurts...

We're selling our Canon EOS 400D SLR

it is she.... we're selling her... reason?... wala lang we wanted to get a new one.. its hurts canny but we have to let you go... she has been my companion for like 6months?... yup and i canny never let me down... she continues to amaze me... but then i have to let her go since i will be loving a new set of NIKON... harharhar but yep... she is a grand camera for a student in photography of my husby ... but then its time... this includes all her accesories.... at 50,000.00pesos -Canon Digital Rebel XTi 10.1MP Digital SLR Camera with EF-S 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6 Lens (Black)
-Canon EF 28-135mm f/3.5-5.6 IS USM Standard Zoom Lens
-Canon EW78BII Lens Hood for EF 28-135mm f/3.5-5.6 IS
-Canon Accessory Starter Kit for Digital Rebel XT and XTi (Includes 200DG Bag, NB-2LH Battery, & 58mm Haze Filter)

Package price @ P 50,000.00pesos she is really a beauty.. canny made my photo ops a very pleasant one... mind you i never touched my pics.. as is where is i took them...
i post them all be it bllurred or what... she captured all the memories i have with princess with hubby .... some of my memories too....

drag the post... in random post

skate...
ngita ko bla roller blade..
yohooo
ma start na ko frisbeee
ma start naman ko bike bike
yhooooo
gotta get me self a new helmet
hmmmm.....

baw kanami .....
kadamu gle sang nag ulutang daw lapit na ten years la kabayad
....
manukot ko bala...

gotta pay princess' plan..
gotta pay me insurance..

now is the time...
to shine!
superstar!...
will look for others who needs me most and again get hurt
well its cycle...
you give you shall be despised!
ayayay!...

mang almirol ta sg tela para himuon ta kurtina.
ang plain colored one lang... kinanlan ko na sa room namun ni husby...
vavooom.... gotta paint our room two tone...

picture ko bala sg new topcom shop!

come dinagyang im going to have fun with my princess...
hahahah

meeting with lenj over drum set
hot hot coffee i miss at roxas.....
coming soon summer!
mambukal, sagada mt. province here we come...

ouch! crazy crazy...

such a fine day of not going to see a doctor
justified.
well i told husby its not because im really sick or tired
the reason i got this sneeze, puffed eyes and na wi windang
its all because im feeling low low low....
i hit the floor... and im low low low low... hahahha
he saw me though
asked me to get that loratadine in a handy
still i have nudge him lets go to the drugstore to get me one
but he get me four
cute...
took one tab and phew!.. the following morning im so A-Okay
i have to be physically okey becuz i have princess on the making
after all that blizzards and the gizzards... arkkk...
its time to pack things for the pre summer get away of popsy
sistah i got it all for you...
got the email... was touhed with the idea of missing...
arkkk....
ehhhhhhhhh my princess is like
glllglglglglb;jlk;ask;efnsnfasdsdj;slk;kpoplnlnnnlb'jg'hih...
hahahaha
she's so cool
she gets to give me a cutee cutee smile
thats why i should shake everything anything whenver im touching her
so that negative energy she won't get.
ahihih
its an ultimate purpose of me and hubby eversince to
give her a love, peace, security and everything that we could to equip
her in her life....
and so we are going to
inch by inch

have to get a rubber mat for princess to play ...
her playground is ready....
soon my world will evolve for my family
closed in.
only the authorized can enter.
yoweee...
where's my nebules?
hmmmm
in a pink box...puff?... nohhhhh.....

aha~... tae~!
she pooped!..
gotta go..
koring...

reflection.

thank you loratadine,

one has to be displaced inorder for the other to be in place.
as i have recalled pasts random thoughts bangs in my head.

i cannot appreciate the present without thinking of the past.

all i can say is i never missed.

i did my very best.
and if by chance no one know, im not here to exist to let you know.

and if my best is not good enough for you
don't worry im not doing such for the benefit of you.

im happy, thats my disposition been.
i have been happy over jjust about anything.
simple things simple joys
and i get moved easily when it comes to family matters.

but if I could be a threat, i better back off.
i still believe in the cycle of life
indeed it is unfair, it was never been fair
but i think its up to us to make it fair.

one has to sacrifice. one has to be displaced
inorder for the other to be in place.

i had enough of life after 4 years of living alone.
i had experience so much of a battle over myself
over others, and i have held my head up high
and kept on holding on to what makes me happy
that i step on to no one.
its wrong to say i made your life easier
but yes i can claim that.
i made someones life little bit easier,
i have helped others in one way or another
and i never commended myself for that
i never asked for whatever
becuz i know life has been unfair.
only to realize that I am the only one who can make it fair
back then life for me is fair,
i always think that its just that it is life.
and put a dot at the end, signed it done and finish it off
with a grateful heart, thinking that in time i will know what lies beneath those

and so i have to shake everything off.
and i have to start letting go.

everyone has.
after ten years of holding on.
the time has come to put an end
the voice of him ringing in my brain
his thoughts
his angst
his idealism
his joys
his sufferings

it is a big big step for me
now come his bday i have to tell him something
what you said happened.
but i cannot hold them no more.

ahhh and so this wheezing comes in

i have to rest.
life has been life.


thanks my baboy for making me more secure.

over killed.

head count.

disconnected
scrammmmmm
black-out
one over one hundred( i wonder what happen to this game?)
drip rip tip tip tip.... click.
tic tac toe round and out
rag doll baby hang up on the ceiling
end up unwilling
stabbed at the back by the unforgiven

the unforgiven when was this out in the movie screen?
trivia... 1960 with burt lancaster (ben zachary) and audrey hepburn ( rachel zachary)
rachel zachary: Ben, what did those Indians want?
ben zachary: They offered to buy you for those five horses.
rachel zachary:Well, did you sell me?
ben zachary: Nope! held out for more horses.

ayayay also 1992 with clint eastwood...
will munny(clint eastwood): That's right. I'm just a fella now. I ain't no different than anyone else no more.

the story is good.. damn good... its no wonder why manuel ong loves this movie.
its history. hahahah!!!...

first draw the line.
put a circle at the end.

its the end and a beginning.

one has to be crushed inorder for the other to live.
one has to be crushed inorder for one to know what is to be done and to be realized.