reflection.

thank you loratadine,

one has to be displaced inorder for the other to be in place.
as i have recalled pasts random thoughts bangs in my head.

i cannot appreciate the present without thinking of the past.

all i can say is i never missed.

i did my very best.
and if by chance no one know, im not here to exist to let you know.

and if my best is not good enough for you
don't worry im not doing such for the benefit of you.

im happy, thats my disposition been.
i have been happy over jjust about anything.
simple things simple joys
and i get moved easily when it comes to family matters.

but if I could be a threat, i better back off.
i still believe in the cycle of life
indeed it is unfair, it was never been fair
but i think its up to us to make it fair.

one has to sacrifice. one has to be displaced
inorder for the other to be in place.

i had enough of life after 4 years of living alone.
i had experience so much of a battle over myself
over others, and i have held my head up high
and kept on holding on to what makes me happy
that i step on to no one.
its wrong to say i made your life easier
but yes i can claim that.
i made someones life little bit easier,
i have helped others in one way or another
and i never commended myself for that
i never asked for whatever
becuz i know life has been unfair.
only to realize that I am the only one who can make it fair
back then life for me is fair,
i always think that its just that it is life.
and put a dot at the end, signed it done and finish it off
with a grateful heart, thinking that in time i will know what lies beneath those

and so i have to shake everything off.
and i have to start letting go.

everyone has.
after ten years of holding on.
the time has come to put an end
the voice of him ringing in my brain
his thoughts
his angst
his idealism
his joys
his sufferings

it is a big big step for me
now come his bday i have to tell him something
what you said happened.
but i cannot hold them no more.

ahhh and so this wheezing comes in

i have to rest.
life has been life.


thanks my baboy for making me more secure.