some thoughts

happy yes i am. and i know im one of the happiest person in this whole damn world. wahahaha.
today is 07-24-2009, yup and i got it so positively positive.
God's blessing is really endless.
who could have thought?.. well we did, we love it. thats why its there.
ha.ha.ha. God really hears our fervent prayer.
and we know God will help us through whatever that will be.
because i believe God gives us what really our hearts desire,
and that he never gives us what we cannot carry.
charannnn....
and again the excitement is unexplainable.
i have so many worries.
worries not about the gift,
but with others.
of which i was thinkin' im not suppose to worry about that.
it should be nonsense to me now. since i have to form my own family
still i cannot hide the idea of i have to look back at those and ponder
and sometimes yea i have to say i was bitter
but then i tried holding on to what is essential.
above all those i know LOVE is in the air for me as always.
and that is what i have been my line ever since.
i have been hurt and i may have hurt someone along the way,
i may have made others to cry, or i have made others think negatively
towards me, but then i say to you, i don't hold your heart nor your brain
to think to feel like that, i may have caused it in purpose of which i am trying and tried not to,
im sorry, still LOVE is what i hold on to.
motherhood really gives you something so much of what is what if and what about.
my family is growing, and i have to teach them right values, together with my husband,
although yeah as of now im kinda confused over "Did i do the right thing?"
i don't think so, etc etc etc..
and so i have to give myself credit for that, since i have told myself that i cannot.
and i don't want to get hurt along the way or short and simple.
i am just trying to avoid and much evil side of me to be revealed.

thoughts are pointless. to others it is. to me perhaps.
i just want to let it go. and sleep well.

xoxo