another thing

and so again i have to start thinking of those unthinkable. write a story make something out of it.

first i just have to unleash the real deal
i have to empty this one out
once in for all i have to confess
confess the very reason
the very reason of why i have
fallen for you, and how i have managed
to pull it off and still go on
with life, without you to hold on to at night
to help me be in constant reality
the reality that we both created
we never parted
we never talked about it
but i know
you know
we both knew
still life has to move on
without you by my side
so much is there for us
others cannot understand
but still we stand
not on the idea of me loving you through and through
but the idea of we loving each other all the days of our life
it pains me though to know
that what we have is too painfull sometimes
to know even just a mere spark on your side i never knew
was there a time you loved me?...
perhaps yes... perhaps no...
yes because you been there for me after all this time
no because i never knew..
i never felt the reciprocity
hard to accept but i manage to settle with just that
tried so many times but i just cannot steal away
what you are giving me... the reality of us...