regresa a mi

i've been drowning me self over il divo lately.
thinking of what if and how could it be?..
then it came to a point wherein again i cannot understand
perhaps its just the way things are,
put me self to sleep after the song regresa a mi... unbreak my heart

and then i dream...i dream of you ...
walking with you...holding hands...talking
all that have been so nonsense became full of sense
with meanings that only you and me can comprehend
of which i have not understood during the time i am wanting to understood.
we look at each other...
you gave me the smile i have been wanting..
just a smile, the smile that lingers through my brain
and keeps my heart pumping.. skipping a beat....
you gave me big great hug, feeling your tender and the warmest hug ever
we sat by the bench, its like i have a big angel on my side
when you hoold me by the hand
i though of i am wanting you so much...
you never talked of wanting me
never asked me "how about us"
or there could be "us"
there could be a time that could be "us"
thoughts came rushng,
in my dream i owned you
in my dream i have touched your deepest soul
in my dreams i love you
in my dreams i know you were mine,
in my dreams i have hold your hand
walked with you
talked with you
kissed you and in my dreams you hugged me.


and i woke up... realizing that...
i know i cannot have you since i know i cannot posses you
why?.. i might be losing you after...
that i know i can love you at a distance
that in my heart i know that i love you
to posses you all to myself only to mysef
is such a big mistake i am going to make
selfish and i know you won't be able to live
you have been living your life free
as free as a flying bird...
like a bird, if put in cage even if i will take care of you
feed you and give you water but since i am possesing you all to me
you won't live longer, for you belong to the world
you are to be flying free.. you are to be for everyone to see at a distant

i then shall just continue loving you at a distance... regresa a mi... let me be... let me love even in my dreams.. even at a distant.

and so my questions we're being answered.
that in my dreams i have loved you fully.....

---- still i have this uncontained emotions. though i know that dreams wasn't enough
but still im grateful for such, fulfilling my dream over a dream.
and i know that not all dreams come true. but it gives meaning in what we call life.
now i don't have those nightmares... becuz i know i will dream of you. and that in my dream i will love you.