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saturday - - yes was at roxas
sunday - - spent the time with brothers and kids... picture taking galore... i enjoyed the idea but when i saw the chipped part of the lens .. ahhhhrggg... sell and buy a new one.. thats the best soution... instead of buying the lens for 25thousand...
i duuno if that will do.
monday... had lunch with my ninang after 28 years okey we meet and she's soo cool... single... and a practicing doctor at LA -- so yes she has been staying at US and hmm i never thought they own the cabalum western college.. arghh!! ok we meet and updates... haaa... and then wedding.... arggghhhhh
then now in front of pc... check the others blog and then start me blog...
i miss and kinda ups and down my moods are ...
1... i should not be talking and thinking about the other.
2. that i have to set me self in not to expect.
3. if i know that i will be frustrated over someone's idea of lots lots lots of reasons as to why it wasn't and cannot be done.. or simple idea of doesn't care or the idea of " whatever".. no concern or how to freakin' lend a hand even not asked for... HAVE TO DO IT ON MY OWN - to not to feel the hurt and being not heard.
4. i miss again.
5. yeheeeyyyy i got a hug and kiss on my forehead yesterday..... i love you papa! mising you!!!
6. then i again i still want to ahve the nice quiet and a moment of conversation with you. ehehehe
7. the picture idea of bf....
8. kids makes me crazy.... its like the ffeling of sobs between hiccups... duh! how can i do that!
9. yehaaaa... im going to watch bamboo...... alone?.... huhuhuhu?......
10. i think im going with marie.. marie i love you for going with me... will regi be coming also?
11. shoudl not think of the other.
12. see.... sometimes giving love is a simple act of sheer stupidity... after that you feel wink wnk wink!!! i dunno! intoxicated!
13. if i will wait..... question is how long?
14. holiday?... for me it feels like just a regular holiday...
holiday to me is when i recv a text or a message that after reading it i can stand there and think of nothibng.... and wear a smile.. that i know i am alive and happy... that's holiday....

what i wear on my face?

----- uncontained emotion of life love and relationship......----
i love and then i let go i let go and then im holdin' on im holding on and it seems the other want me to drop the idea...... adn then it again repeats the cycle....