STARTED AT 2.PM how it started?... well i texted. just wondering. just wandering. and then all things went smoothly. i have to be open. but here i just want to re-state my message. kay daw klaro eh. i was wondering about what others are doing, and wandering around. thinking what to blog, anxious about my growing belly, kitchen work-ups in the morning, repeating music in my iPod, driving around comfortably now that the honda is with me, thinking of having me home with hubby, thinking of people in roxas that basically not missing me, looking for nice top to match my two peice, this list does not include my spur of the moments if you may call it my bucket list. yes im trying to catch up perhaps but daw kalabo, and it seems that sometimes i want to just raise my hands and quit, but i know its not me, and that simple thoughts now are kinda hard to accept, little things that makes me smile are now they are just for a while, - easily frustrated, and was having the hard time to get up and smile. revenge is at the back of my brain, but no, God has its plan i should not medle, WE FELT THAT YOU ARE KINDA ANGRY WITH US - I WAS ANGRY --- ahh no not angry I was just furious.. THATS WHY WE DISTANCE OURSELVES FOR A WHILE, BECAUSE ITS BAD FOR THE BABY.HE HE. -- the more you did so the more i went ballistic, but was good to deal with the idea, the idea of becoming a kitchen freak outs and gone obsessive compulsive with clean ups and rants to employee that do not meet my standards. poor them. so this is how everything went.... you made silent yourselves becuz of baby... but it wasn't good for me either... trying to clinched my fist and thinking like turning over a plate of fresh garden salad right in your faces!... ohhhh so now im okey.... another thing that makes me busy is being vigilant over some trying to do something about the broken thermostat of the earth please click on this link... THINK GREEN and so now i feel much better...wala pa man ko na insecure but i felt i was brushed off.....

Dove

since i was a child i love to have that Dove soap lathered through my skin every time i take my shower... and now.. i heard this news...Unilever is one of the world's biggest users of Indonesian palm oil for many of its products. About half of Unilever's palm oil supply comes from Indonesia. As recently as 2005, Unilever purchased 1 in every 20 tonnes of palm oil produced in the country. - - - thus destroys the rainforest's of Indonesia... for more info please log on to greenpeace for more info and please help... we need to correct things before it gets even worse... we are at its worst now... feel the heat... feel the broken thermostat of the earth.... if we are not gonna act on this... soon or tomorrow will never comes....

pictures...

pictures taken by my hubbie CJE from his summer trip and yes not with me... why?... im pregnant... so the story goes.... he befriended nine as in 9 -- the maltese dog of T-bor and Bubu, our barkada, and had all the time my iPod shuffle with him to keep him sound... heheehh he did enjoy he said so... and he said if i wasn't pregnant for sure she'll take much of my picture --- i said in two piece... aihiiii.... still i need to get me schedule to check of when and how am i gonna get me self to the beach with dew people and me wearing two piece suit.. bunty!...

kitchen kingdom

since this month i am now certified super maniac (as in super market maniac) make sure i go thre weekly to buy me self veggies, some fishes, meats and yes yes yes fruits... so after that i get to roam my kitchen kingdom and cook cook cook .. and im so loving it....
and then plus it makes me stresses go away... stresses like: not able to go to the beach. not able to wear my two piece.. not able to met and greet with friends. not able to bonding with TPL seriously. not able to spend summer to the very extreme situation oh well this i should pass since bunty is bunty .. and hten i crave for calea... hayyyyyyyy ... but im not sure if im gonna eat man... i have tried that with leche flan and all i did was just take a look at it inside the ref every now and then and then hate those who eat my leche flan, made by tita malou.... woinka! an di got this message in my text.. about a a bakla and a girl... they're friends

girl: oy bakla ang puti kaya ng face mo ngayun?.....
bakla: heller! FOUNDATION DAY kaya ngayun...!...

harharahrha toink!

so what's new with profession?...

whooot whoooot

see after the holy week i get to rush rush rush... like?.....meet ups for the corny birthday present to richard my dear ... so dinner at blue jays,.. jeezzz i got me self angus beef steak, and a plate of garden salad with mango sauce, and some i made pica pica with are==== sausage platter, pasta marinara.. and then boing! boing! boing!... i asked if my indian mango can be peeled... and ask for salt... so ayun... i had water all the way. thas so great ... but wait...
my holy thursday was spent with a chrism mass at the cathedral, and then get to meet and greet me papa and other boyfriends, and then i stayed home.. got a big fight over time conscious with hubby and cried over it and then ... stayed at home.. comes friday hay... kitchen ideas are just so into me.. so good friday was well spent at my dear kitchen.. what was cookin'? well ... very rich vegetable soup.. the ingredients are: malunggay, shrimplets, pumpkin, okra and then toogabung... hahah.. so sweet the green veges.. in local term laswa.. hahah.. and then fresh paksiw na aloy with a little bit of spiciness due to siling haba i put in... and then steamed hipon(shrimplets!) --- and then after lunch is i have to cook for a cause for the youth in our church who was working for the angels chu chu chus.. hahha.. and so... chicken noodle soup an dthen pancit molo for night and i had snacks served at home spaghetti all in tomato sauce.. wotttttttt

its just another day

just another ordinary day that i don't want to miss the idea of shopping its thursday afternoon of last week. so okey.. i have the hardest time ever of figuring things out what what what.... okey got me self some stuffs for me preggy days ahead and bought hubby a comb of his own since his comb might have been lost somewhere or left at the other house etc etc.. all the reason in the world.. and then took me self to the drugstore to buy me supplements and for the baby. and then off to home.. elevate elevate elevate my legs... since this pressure of my baby( by the way small pa naman sya eh) but i can feel the hardness that my baby is giving me. hayyyy... its so nice the feeling. so okey i saw some people... aw! they are busy man with the chit chats and guess what i am trying to avoid the idea of meet and greet echos!.. kay da ka palstic man sg iban nga upod so, i get to push the cart to wherever they are not there... and soo i scoot to the counter and then shoooo i went off.
march 15, woke up so early to attend the thanksgiving mass of my dear papa of his 25th sacerdotal, with God's graciousness and oozing of providence to him and to our family... oh anyway well meant prayers where sent to him.. get to meet my spiritual friend mother pauline.. aw i feel so missed her so much... but never got a chance to talk to her intimately sicne the family are there also.. so i was just like kinda saying i"ll be back mother .... and then off to some errands and etc etc etc for a day.. to en the week.. and now im preparing for my season of lent... hush baby... i have to give thanks to Him with so much love and devotion for giving me you..


(bunty journal march16'08)

its not just on friday that im in love with you...

that song rings and rang in my head... yoweeee... how i wish i could just pour things out..
like i again spend my thursday night in bed alone.. since my hubby would just opt to go home to his place, and i don't feel like going there.. reasons?... the road is long and kinda endless... haaaa.. that for now i feel and in any emergency i cannot just run out and do what it is to be done. malayo sa sibilisasyun. so he goes home thursday and friday and ssaturday.. see but sometimes he just goes home just for a night.. and another reason.. i got nothin to do there except for another rounds of time over internet... bugged by the baby kulit nephew of his, not much of food to eat over nothin' in short bored. i cannot sleep straight in the room of his since he will hoaring down the compuer over playing his favorite online game of battle field vietnam... and of course that is the only kirida he has.. as far as i have known?.. hahahah.. and so i opt to stay here in my safest place called home.
and as i have been drowning me self in solace... i have thought of this revelation: kis-a i was thinking, wala man ko nag prob sg kwarta, pero kung lantawun ko sa lifestyle ko im spending much, i travel every now and then ( though not much lately kay buntit ako) i get to buy me self some stuffs i love and like, i get to laugh often, i worry not much, i hate other people's idiosyncrasies but still i accept them as them ... i help others man.. sometimes i wonder how could i help man gani?.. pero i did... maldita man ko kag i know kailinit man ko ... pero at the end of the day.. i know i never missed.... this one thing fo sure i know im doing right... i never missed loving... that is the ultimate everyday goal i have.. to love to love to love.... .... see my life is wonderful... hmmm so there goes another revelation in life.
i don't get by sometimes but i know i'll get by after that sometimes.,.. weird.. but to others there are just too un imaginable thing to be done in their lives that they thought it is but for sure it is not.l but then life sucks so we have to deal with it. but then it depends on what attitude we give in to view life... i for instance i go for positive and more loving one... and then for the reason of ending it with much of love and smile... that life is indeed a hard assed bitch... hahahah... i say i amen to those who have cnquered and soon will again conquer another greater heights in theri lives. like others would love to go on taking master's degree.. doctorate.... getting a nurisng degree on top of whatever degree they already have and then there are some who jjust can't get enough after degree's of degrees... hehehe so still they end up winner - - one shot exam taker - - hail to your brain... its highly equipped with great intellect. but then remember if you do not have the attitude... yer gonna be goin' down the drain... so keep the sunny side up of sun shone on that face of yers....


---->>>> baby yawns!!!... sleepy time....

(bunty journal for 03-07-2008)

kerplock!

so i read. yehey!!! another healer?.. hahaha.. gret great great.. i wonder whats next?.. surgeon?.. ay whatever.

you see i've had this quiet short and quick talk with hubby over just about anything that popped into my mind right after i stepped out of the bathroom, first.. the wonder of motherhood.. all the patience and perseverance, the humbling etc etc etc.. makes me teary.. and then all of a sudden another thought oh my i had a schoolmate then he was big and cute and cuddly i bet as usual those big and bold pipol, are indeed cuddly.. so he is now licensed md?.. thats so great.. im so proud of what he has been up to.. see i heard those past events that happened in his life.. hay segi alng its life.. and sometimes we get to learn from it very well. we just have to. but congrats to him. all is paid off.

anyway sideways.. im on the edge of my first trimester. feeling a bit bunty as in.
so this morning i attended mass, hubby got the car at the other side and then pick me up again to ahve lunch, but before he icked me up right after mass it took me only 30minutes to shop for justa short and a cute tops, so striped blue.. and then got us both a new nice and fluffy pillow, some mini chairs for the handmaids, hangers and some stuff,, i realize that all these years living alone at home, trying to manage and meeting both ends and upto the time i got me self married i have been doing some odd things... shopping for laundry clips, hangers, water tubs, place mats, laundry baskets, pillows and etc etc etc.. hmm i have been trained!.. i trained me self. harharharhar..

and so i continued buying some stuff in just 30minutes. and then toink! there goes my hubby, off we went to eat at erning's back then when i wa sin high school me and my friends would hurry up and eat our lunch here just eat talaba and sisi over hot rice and soft drinks.. oh well if we have extra we grab some lechon.. and now we just have our native lechon, talaba gulaman, some sorts.. yeah since i can only just a little since eating much makes me barf and a bit nauseated after and then the feeling of bloatedness is soo eww!. so there... was with my brother of course and then we went to oton to see my neice nad my other brother and then off we went to some are called junkshop where people meet to fire gun at each other.. hahah nahhh to have fun with airsfot and so iw a sthere... hayyyy... okey and then went to see the bike fest! haha.. so many people and the ehat is on.. so i neeed to tell them both 9 my bro and hubby) lets leave and then off we went o the new hobbie in town.. fish tanks and fishes in the tanks... hayyy... and so again i end up shakeys... i got me self hungry and then eat me shakeys pizze and then do some funny grocery... i get to selct the food and things to buy... harharhar... and so i get home raised me leg up while watching some odd news again over some slutty deal i must call.. and then off to take me bath and then i slept right after then i woke up and got nothin to do,,,, im hungry... and i ate nad then i did this blog, an again im hungry,... have to eat and then sleep. see yah around.
i miss TPL roxas so much... hope i can get there this week. night morning tight!... let mee see a new sunrise later to fight!... (winks! bliss bliss bliss )

2months na...

and yes im still in barfing modes... urks! erks!.. got the first ultrasound of my baby .. cool. speechless ako. so what has been the routine lately aside from frequent lavatory barf?.. hmmmm sleep. pee... and.. you know.. and then .... think think think what am i gonna eat?... nada! nada! so what we gonna do?... drink water... eat crackers.. sleep... wake up... barf.. yeah.. life's like that sometimes.
okey reading veronika makes me a little bit relax... hmmm cooking something i cannot eat.. basta i just love cooking.. hate the pills.
stay and waiting and then browse to some blogs entries.. and then read and get hold of other people's lives and learn something from it or some i can apply to my daily dallies..
pack things for another nights on the other side.. and then world becomes a little bit messed up when i am there... i do;t like the atmosphere as there are much of chaos every now and then and that it seems that attitude is winning. i cannot compromise my tiredness and just be awaken to some chaos of brother/sister quarrel and then will be added by husband after.. and then i feel uncomfortable. i hate that kind of situations .. i want a quiet and serene place. so i would opt to stay at home and let husband go home and i for three nights will wait for him here in my special place of which i called home for the past 28 years of my life. i miss feedback over multiply and to some other blogs i have. i miss the company so much. i miss the best trip im wanting to have. to go back to roxas. and trip to other cities.. mostly i miss much a hug from papa and rom bestfriends. a hug i cannot have from hubby., though hubby is great.. harharharh he is great. one great husband.. nahh comment no more na ah. im trying to compose a lyric out of this situation to ge tme brain off other things .. ut it seems that im kinda bobo for now. hahaha... so see yah later whenever... whatever...

morning wake ups and guilt.

guilt.. guilt... i've been missing the show of john paul cadiz's ARANGKADA at GMA, that's the cut somewhere in between UNANG HIRIT.. reason: sleepy, becuz im preggy. this is a valid reason?.. whoaaa... i miss a lot of his segments.. and the moment i turn on the tv when i wake up?... ha?... tapos nah?.. OMG... i love you JPC... heheheh, second guilt....i am trying to take anmum ... reason why me not drinking it most of the time?.. i don't like the smell and i feel like im gonna barf... and i feel bloated after.. hope anmumers can read this so that they can have remedy for other mommies to be... so i take capsules to nourish baby hans if i cannot take anmum... and yes im wearing a maternity shirt with words " hormonally challenged"... beat that.. and i feel pretty. harold you hear that?.. i feel pretty!.. heheheand i love you!!.. aw! hubby is so cute when waking up in the morning touching my belly and saying " hello baby!".. yowee... hmmm and i think im lsoing weight.. my baby is eating all im taking in... whooops!.. and he hungers every two hours... hay hoping and praying baby hans will be like his/her Daddy Harold, Daddy Robert, Daddy Richard, Daddy Joel and Daddy Lenj ( waikikikikikikikiki! patay naman ako sa knila! paglihian ba naman!) ha! you are so right my dear harold basta good traits lang.. hahahah... ahhh.. i love foot massages, arms and torso massages... love it love it.. one thing that irks me lately is this... my brain is growing!... that means i have a frequent headache dumdum! and dinagyang is coming and i dunno how am i gonna kill the missing moments with harold, lenj, robert and JPC and the rest of the gangs... please do come over.. lets just have juice and talk and watch movies!... hehehehe
JPC - - try ko ulit tomorrow na di ko ma miss imong arangkada ha... wabshu! hehehe