that song rings and rang in my head... yoweeee... how i wish i could just pour things out..
like i again spend my thursday night in bed alone.. since my hubby would just opt to go home to his place, and i don't feel like going there.. reasons?... the road is long and kinda endless... haaaa.. that for now i feel and in any emergency i cannot just run out and do what it is to be done. malayo sa sibilisasyun. so he goes home thursday and friday and ssaturday.. see but sometimes he just goes home just for a night.. and another reason.. i got nothin to do there except for another rounds of time over internet... bugged by the baby kulit nephew of his, not much of food to eat over nothin' in short bored. i cannot sleep straight in the room of his since he will hoaring down the compuer over playing his favorite online game of battle field vietnam... and of course that is the only kirida he has.. as far as i have known?.. hahahah.. and so i opt to stay here in my safest place called home.
and as i have been drowning me self in solace... i have thought of this revelation: kis-a i was thinking, wala man ko nag prob sg kwarta, pero kung lantawun ko sa lifestyle ko im spending much, i travel every now and then ( though not much lately kay buntit ako) i get to buy me self some stuffs i love and like, i get to laugh often, i worry not much, i hate other people's idiosyncrasies but still i accept them as them ... i help others man.. sometimes i wonder how could i help man gani?.. pero i did... maldita man ko kag i know kailinit man ko ... pero at the end of the day.. i know i never missed.... this one thing fo sure i know im doing right... i never missed loving... that is the ultimate everyday goal i have.. to love to love to love.... .... see my life is wonderful... hmmm so there goes another revelation in life.
i don't get by sometimes but i know i'll get by after that sometimes.,.. weird.. but to others there are just too un imaginable thing to be done in their lives that they thought it is but for sure it is not.l but then life sucks so we have to deal with it. but then it depends on what attitude we give in to view life... i for instance i go for positive and more loving one... and then for the reason of ending it with much of love and smile... that life is indeed a hard assed bitch... hahahah... i say i amen to those who have cnquered and soon will again conquer another greater heights in theri lives. like others would love to go on taking master's degree.. doctorate.... getting a nurisng degree on top of whatever degree they already have and then there are some who jjust can't get enough after degree's of degrees... hehehe so still they end up winner - - one shot exam taker - - hail to your brain... its highly equipped with great intellect. but then remember if you do not have the attitude... yer gonna be goin' down the drain... so keep the sunny side up of sun shone on that face of yers....
---->>>> baby yawns!!!... sleepy time....
(bunty journal for 03-07-2008)
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