such a fine day of not going to see a doctor
justified.
well i told husby its not because im really sick or tired
the reason i got this sneeze, puffed eyes and na wi windang
its all because im feeling low low low....
i hit the floor... and im low low low low... hahahha
he saw me though
asked me to get that loratadine in a handy
still i have nudge him lets go to the drugstore to get me one
but he get me four
cute...
took one tab and phew!.. the following morning im so A-Okay
i have to be physically okey becuz i have princess on the making
after all that blizzards and the gizzards... arkkk...
its time to pack things for the pre summer get away of popsy
sistah i got it all for you...
got the email... was touhed with the idea of missing...
arkkk....
ehhhhhhhhh my princess is like
glllglglglglb;jlk;ask;efnsnfasdsdj;slk;kpoplnlnnnlb'jg'hih...
hahahaha
she's so cool
she gets to give me a cutee cutee smile
thats why i should shake everything anything whenver im touching her
so that negative energy she won't get.
ahihih
its an ultimate purpose of me and hubby eversince to
give her a love, peace, security and everything that we could to equip
her in her life....
and so we are going to
inch by inch
have to get a rubber mat for princess to play ...
her playground is ready....
soon my world will evolve for my family
closed in.
only the authorized can enter.
yoweee...
where's my nebules?
hmmmm
in a pink box...puff?... nohhhhh.....
aha~... tae~!
she pooped!..
gotta go..
koring...
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Sunday, January 04, 2009
reflection.
thank you loratadine,
one has to be displaced inorder for the other to be in place.
as i have recalled pasts random thoughts bangs in my head.
i cannot appreciate the present without thinking of the past.
all i can say is i never missed.
i did my very best.
and if by chance no one know, im not here to exist to let you know.
and if my best is not good enough for you
don't worry im not doing such for the benefit of you.
im happy, thats my disposition been.
i have been happy over jjust about anything.
simple things simple joys
and i get moved easily when it comes to family matters.
but if I could be a threat, i better back off.
i still believe in the cycle of life
indeed it is unfair, it was never been fair
but i think its up to us to make it fair.
one has to sacrifice. one has to be displaced
inorder for the other to be in place.
i had enough of life after 4 years of living alone.
i had experience so much of a battle over myself
over others, and i have held my head up high
and kept on holding on to what makes me happy
that i step on to no one.
its wrong to say i made your life easier
but yes i can claim that.
i made someones life little bit easier,
i have helped others in one way or another
and i never commended myself for that
i never asked for whatever
becuz i know life has been unfair.
only to realize that I am the only one who can make it fair
back then life for me is fair,
i always think that its just that it is life.
and put a dot at the end, signed it done and finish it off
with a grateful heart, thinking that in time i will know what lies beneath those
and so i have to shake everything off.
and i have to start letting go.
everyone has.
after ten years of holding on.
the time has come to put an end
the voice of him ringing in my brain
his thoughts
his angst
his idealism
his joys
his sufferings
it is a big big step for me
now come his bday i have to tell him something
what you said happened.
but i cannot hold them no more.
ahhh and so this wheezing comes in
i have to rest.
life has been life.
thanks my baboy for making me more secure.
one has to be displaced inorder for the other to be in place.
as i have recalled pasts random thoughts bangs in my head.
i cannot appreciate the present without thinking of the past.
all i can say is i never missed.
i did my very best.
and if by chance no one know, im not here to exist to let you know.
and if my best is not good enough for you
don't worry im not doing such for the benefit of you.
im happy, thats my disposition been.
i have been happy over jjust about anything.
simple things simple joys
and i get moved easily when it comes to family matters.
but if I could be a threat, i better back off.
i still believe in the cycle of life
indeed it is unfair, it was never been fair
but i think its up to us to make it fair.
one has to sacrifice. one has to be displaced
inorder for the other to be in place.
i had enough of life after 4 years of living alone.
i had experience so much of a battle over myself
over others, and i have held my head up high
and kept on holding on to what makes me happy
that i step on to no one.
its wrong to say i made your life easier
but yes i can claim that.
i made someones life little bit easier,
i have helped others in one way or another
and i never commended myself for that
i never asked for whatever
becuz i know life has been unfair.
only to realize that I am the only one who can make it fair
back then life for me is fair,
i always think that its just that it is life.
and put a dot at the end, signed it done and finish it off
with a grateful heart, thinking that in time i will know what lies beneath those
and so i have to shake everything off.
and i have to start letting go.
everyone has.
after ten years of holding on.
the time has come to put an end
the voice of him ringing in my brain
his thoughts
his angst
his idealism
his joys
his sufferings
it is a big big step for me
now come his bday i have to tell him something
what you said happened.
but i cannot hold them no more.
ahhh and so this wheezing comes in
i have to rest.
life has been life.
thanks my baboy for making me more secure.
head count.
disconnected
scrammmmmm
black-out
one over one hundred( i wonder what happen to this game?)
drip rip tip tip tip.... click.
tic tac toe round and out
rag doll baby hang up on the ceiling
end up unwilling
stabbed at the back by the unforgiven
the unforgiven when was this out in the movie screen?
trivia... 1960 with burt lancaster (ben zachary) and audrey hepburn ( rachel zachary)
rachel zachary: Ben, what did those Indians want?
ben zachary: They offered to buy you for those five horses.
rachel zachary:Well, did you sell me?
ben zachary: Nope! held out for more horses.
ayayay also 1992 with clint eastwood...
will munny(clint eastwood): That's right. I'm just a fella now. I ain't no different than anyone else no more.
the story is good.. damn good... its no wonder why manuel ong loves this movie.
its history. hahahah!!!...
first draw the line.
put a circle at the end.
its the end and a beginning.
one has to be crushed inorder for the other to live.
one has to be crushed inorder for one to know what is to be done and to be realized.
scrammmmmm
black-out
one over one hundred( i wonder what happen to this game?)
drip rip tip tip tip.... click.
tic tac toe round and out
rag doll baby hang up on the ceiling
end up unwilling
stabbed at the back by the unforgiven
the unforgiven when was this out in the movie screen?
trivia... 1960 with burt lancaster (ben zachary) and audrey hepburn ( rachel zachary)
rachel zachary: Ben, what did those Indians want?
ben zachary: They offered to buy you for those five horses.
rachel zachary:Well, did you sell me?
ben zachary: Nope! held out for more horses.
ayayay also 1992 with clint eastwood...
will munny(clint eastwood): That's right. I'm just a fella now. I ain't no different than anyone else no more.
the story is good.. damn good... its no wonder why manuel ong loves this movie.
its history. hahahah!!!...
first draw the line.
put a circle at the end.
its the end and a beginning.
one has to be crushed inorder for the other to live.
one has to be crushed inorder for one to know what is to be done and to be realized.
tadlong tiko watever
insecurity.
build it up build it up.
padungol.
i will.
if others are wanting some NICE and malumanay nga talk
what i got is this i call nada....
kay ka intindi ako.
its not all the time.
ka simple man lang
it doesn't have to reach yer end.
tubangay man kmi ngaa maagi pa sa kung diin nga kuryente?
ha... labu sa likod?
madumot ang agot ni manuel
gapaumod lang.
don't care about fairness in the whole sense of living
on my circle it matters.
im starting to etch the plan
after all those said and done.
just like you and me i have my episodes too.
sorry but i shall pass.
and by the way highway
these are my angst.
its a product of my head
whats my struggles are
and yer not welcome to comment
if you are against my wind.
sorry to say but its my gun.
its my way of counting my shells b4 i fire things out.
sad to say ... yes sad to say....
b4 this shitty things
i was thinking its going to be a bomb.
first mj and then pee pics
why not direct ?
whats the fuzz?
ari ka di ari man ko di...
kita ta duha
estorya man ta
why not get the things straight to me?
ahhh you want world map?
im not the insecure one bitch!
im just this person trying to swallow your moronic activity.
xoxo
insecured bitch!
build it up build it up.
padungol.
i will.
if others are wanting some NICE and malumanay nga talk
what i got is this i call nada....
kay ka intindi ako.
its not all the time.
ka simple man lang
it doesn't have to reach yer end.
tubangay man kmi ngaa maagi pa sa kung diin nga kuryente?
ha... labu sa likod?
madumot ang agot ni manuel
gapaumod lang.
don't care about fairness in the whole sense of living
on my circle it matters.
im starting to etch the plan
after all those said and done.
just like you and me i have my episodes too.
sorry but i shall pass.
and by the way highway
these are my angst.
its a product of my head
whats my struggles are
and yer not welcome to comment
if you are against my wind.
sorry to say but its my gun.
its my way of counting my shells b4 i fire things out.
sad to say ... yes sad to say....
b4 this shitty things
i was thinking its going to be a bomb.
first mj and then pee pics
why not direct ?
whats the fuzz?
ari ka di ari man ko di...
kita ta duha
estorya man ta
why not get the things straight to me?
ahhh you want world map?
im not the insecure one bitch!
im just this person trying to swallow your moronic activity.
xoxo
insecured bitch!
Saturday, January 03, 2009
ga kurta ulo ko. part 2
you know i came home from church and my mind is very very clear.
i want it that way. don't i deserve some silence.
i don't need another blah blah blah....
i have my own episodes too.
im not a superwoman who could think about just about anything
and make everything pleasant.
i am human and prone to such
i am not pro active sometimes, because i have some hang-ups too
yes im a bitch. so what?..
its not all the time that i can heed all what your talkin' to
its not all the time that i feel good.
now what. thanks for ruiuning my day.
you just made my day.
thank you.
it made my day more colorful.
thank you.
i want it that way. don't i deserve some silence.
i don't need another blah blah blah....
i have my own episodes too.
im not a superwoman who could think about just about anything
and make everything pleasant.
i am human and prone to such
i am not pro active sometimes, because i have some hang-ups too
yes im a bitch. so what?..
its not all the time that i can heed all what your talkin' to
its not all the time that i feel good.
now what. thanks for ruiuning my day.
you just made my day.
thank you.
it made my day more colorful.
thank you.
ga kurta ulo ko.
tak-an ko.
i want to get the hell out of here.
anu pa guid?....
naabot ko mu.
if you want this then come and fuckin' get it.
i resign.
you are such a looser!.. as IN LOOSER
wala ka pulos.
parasite.
mango.
idiot.
imbecile.
moron.
pea brain.
fish brain.
IN THE FIRST PLACE WALA KO DI GAPABAYA.
I DUNNO KUNG ANU GUSTO SG IBAN DA MATABO.
ahh i know kay indi sya kapanghilam-os sg iya nga problema..
sang ari di si kwan wala man reklamo..
ngaa sg ako na lng di ngaa daw damu reklamo haw?...
daw gina bullshit ko haw..
anu ang motibo?
what for?...
tak-an ko ah...
natabuan lang ni nga may bata ko mo
kag ang maid ko yaya ko man at the same time mo.
ang ila gani dre nga ginbilin ga haya haya lang di.
wala guid ko ga reklamo.
pati pagkaun kuryente tubi. TANAN
pati ang kamangu-on wala ko reklamo.
soon i will leave everything behind.
shit. ngaa patulan ko man ni man?
kay ga init ulo ko.
as i have expected.
insecurity swells inside me
gina bantayan ko lang
ako na lang gani nahuya.
and now i will unleash my side.
wala ko paki-alam.
bahala na.
sagura nyo ah.
at the end of the day.
i know i did my best.
kag wala ako sg may gintapakan.
kung ikaw ya gets in my way and you feel like gintapakan ta ka
te tae mo na ya.
hambal lang kmu kung gusto nyo di kay willing guid ko mag give up.
in the first place its time for me to move on.
nakuha ko namn ni sa gobyerno
bayad naman ni ang rent for the year pati tax ( a-hole!)
should i say I HAD ENOUGH?
ahh gle..
i think im having enough.
ang akun nga pasensya subong gina tigana ko sa akun man pangabuhi.
gani indi nyo man pagsagay ka kaun ....
kay mabalos guid ko kung di na ko kapugong.
gakurta ulo ko haliin pa sg december 20 - '08
tani gin bilin ko na ini galing kay may abnormal guid nga namitan guid sya ya mag eksena.
lantawun ta bida mo karun. kung makaun mo sinamo mo.
madinalok na ko ya.
wala pahilabtanay.
the hell i care.
end of relationship!
toink!
i want to get the hell out of here.
anu pa guid?....
naabot ko mu.
if you want this then come and fuckin' get it.
i resign.
you are such a looser!.. as IN LOOSER
wala ka pulos.
parasite.
mango.
idiot.
imbecile.
moron.
pea brain.
fish brain.
IN THE FIRST PLACE WALA KO DI GAPABAYA.
I DUNNO KUNG ANU GUSTO SG IBAN DA MATABO.
ahh i know kay indi sya kapanghilam-os sg iya nga problema..
sang ari di si kwan wala man reklamo..
ngaa sg ako na lng di ngaa daw damu reklamo haw?...
daw gina bullshit ko haw..
anu ang motibo?
what for?...
tak-an ko ah...
natabuan lang ni nga may bata ko mo
kag ang maid ko yaya ko man at the same time mo.
ang ila gani dre nga ginbilin ga haya haya lang di.
wala guid ko ga reklamo.
pati pagkaun kuryente tubi. TANAN
pati ang kamangu-on wala ko reklamo.
soon i will leave everything behind.
shit. ngaa patulan ko man ni man?
kay ga init ulo ko.
as i have expected.
insecurity swells inside me
gina bantayan ko lang
ako na lang gani nahuya.
and now i will unleash my side.
wala ko paki-alam.
bahala na.
sagura nyo ah.
at the end of the day.
i know i did my best.
kag wala ako sg may gintapakan.
kung ikaw ya gets in my way and you feel like gintapakan ta ka
te tae mo na ya.
hambal lang kmu kung gusto nyo di kay willing guid ko mag give up.
in the first place its time for me to move on.
nakuha ko namn ni sa gobyerno
bayad naman ni ang rent for the year pati tax ( a-hole!)
should i say I HAD ENOUGH?
ahh gle..
i think im having enough.
ang akun nga pasensya subong gina tigana ko sa akun man pangabuhi.
gani indi nyo man pagsagay ka kaun ....
kay mabalos guid ko kung di na ko kapugong.
gakurta ulo ko haliin pa sg december 20 - '08
tani gin bilin ko na ini galing kay may abnormal guid nga namitan guid sya ya mag eksena.
lantawun ta bida mo karun. kung makaun mo sinamo mo.
madinalok na ko ya.
wala pahilabtanay.
the hell i care.
end of relationship!
toink!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
its kinda abnormal... but its normal..
i have this thoughts --recurring thoughts over wanting to do a story a blog or wathever para ma extract lng xa sa brain ko... this has to be my checklist.!!... have to!
make a story about 1. my 5 brothers... about 2. each one of 'em...3. my lambkins husband 4. superfriends(though i have made some already gotta continue this...) 5. howay!!!Papa monsignor eh?... 6. my life ..from way back as far as i can rmember upto princess hours.... my journey with them... life with them... thoughts about them.. perhaps a prayer for them... a prayer for us all...
with God guiding us all...
delighted?... well i dunno... i am still thinking how am i gonna pull it through!!!...
ahhh shall start looking back before i step 30... life before 30!... yehey~!!!!!!
make a story about 1. my 5 brothers... about 2. each one of 'em...3. my lambkins husband 4. superfriends(though i have made some already gotta continue this...) 5. howay!!!Papa monsignor eh?... 6. my life ..from way back as far as i can rmember upto princess hours.... my journey with them... life with them... thoughts about them.. perhaps a prayer for them... a prayer for us all...
with God guiding us all...
delighted?... well i dunno... i am still thinking how am i gonna pull it through!!!...
ahhh shall start looking back before i step 30... life before 30!... yehey~!!!!!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
what's in the BAG --- and all the kikays in the earth
giddy yap!.. an early christmas for me?... nign!... hahah.. so i got to the place where i once worked... see the place is still the place.. ahihihi...so here is the bag... bag pa lang patok na sa takilya... shiet ang cute ng paperbag!
so what is in the bag?....
stuffs for me of course... but damn i got a good price for this.. and so i call it
best buy ever...best buy so there it is... the red and the blue shirts... aw!.... old navy... i bought it at elleganza and its online shopping... see.. online sya pero i get my stuffs at ECPH and very cheap that i won't even tell you since it might be like.. breaking the price of 'em girls... anyway.... with all those tags and the reality of reality that it is not bugus!.. all are in... check thier sites and malay mo you'll like it too... the way i like them...they accept also those items not on their list, they'll check the availability...
you know why i like them much?... they get to fill their boxes so fast... and then i get my item fast too... of course there are some items that bought by my deary sister that gets to me (long time! and she
makes sure that it does fits well still)... and i could not beleive i can fit into XS of ON.. wow!... but still it depends on the item... see if i took the XS of the pink one.. im pretty sure it won't fit me... love the material... heheh... so the box gets in the philippines faster..,... you see online shoppng does not deliver mostly to our country... hahah it gets lost at the customs!... harhahrh... or at the pier... gone madagascar!... harhahrahr...and so the fits... sorry for a not so model like body but shiet!... it fit... and it looks good one me.. according to my neice.. or else that dslr camera
will come whoosing down her face!,... hahah joke... she's lovely..and she won't do such to hurt my feelings... aw!., sweet... anyway .. a nice shoe?.. anyone?... question is do i need another shoe?... hahaha does this feet goes on barefoot?.... harhahra...hmmm undies?.. aha!... a nice dress... you know those flowing like a river... harhahrha... hmmm i still want some mascara and an eyeliner that would just make my day... and a nice hot bath and a nice foot reflex... aw!... hubby?... where's hubby?... ahahaha... a nice flip flops hmmm havis?... nope!!! will look for ipanema's again... or maybe dragon na lng... hahrahr... perhaps a nice... wow!.. everything that is nice... a skirt.. yes a skirt that is plain in color... one color only... aw!... whoot whooot!!!! have to go get my power nap!... chek the site.,.. elleganza!... speaks for elle elegant..........eh.....zzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZ
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
i have been
past few days i have been like in front of the computer trying everything... and loving everything i do .. though a bit exhausting since i am a full time mother and a lightly asst to the store and a full housewife... its fun and im loving it...and so i get to wake up everyday and have that song in my head " i breathe in the beauty of the morning as I awake to a day of blessings i gaze high upon the golden sun shining brightly, giving life to everyone" lyrics by JPC.. love it JPC.. hihihi.. anyway.. yes as i sing it inside my head or sometimes an alternate hum with "salamat guid" to princess during sleepy time.. it digs insid eme as to why.. becuz im so hopeful of life.. grateful for what my life turned out to be.. ever grateful for God to give me this life.. and that hopeful that everyday i will wake up to His ever flowing abundance of grace ( i call it usually providence!)
i was asked by JPC blah blah motherhood...
and i yes I with my head up high... answered.. it made me more so happy to live the life.. taking so much pleasure in little things.. appreciating everything that happens and always on a positive side of of the negative.. i look at life as ever wanting ultimate goal!.. that looking back i did everything and made everything possible to be on this level of life.. (deep?) my deeper sense of understanding of letting things be what they want to be... to live and let live.. to love and be lost and love again... that at the end of the day i know the Lord is always guiding me... this i have been thinking deeply its Christmas time.. why not we think much of what was our life been and be grateful ever to God for giving us life ... of I won't be this "BABY" this "MARIA THERESA" the "MOTHER" the "WIFE".. the "SISTER".. FRIEND... or just simply being "ME"... if not for HIM... Thank YOU so much... because of You, Lord.. I am ME..
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