still singin'

singin' a not so ordinary song for me and im pretty sure its not that ordinary as it can be heard from station to stations that is if you don't have a player in your car or you are so dead stuck in your ipod. but anyways yes if i were a boy.. still rings in my head.
had one shot fo tequila 10.40pm... arghhh the taste that taste i must say... sweet tempting taste...
yeah ... so selfish of me... but i made sure hubby is watching her... and i needed that shot.. i wanted that shot... like forever... when was the last time 2007?.. yeah december 25th 2007 and i got pregnant of my princess
and now this will be my first... and i become a newbee and my brain again oozes wth lots of words and hurts that streams... still able to think of the goodness of one... yes bert you are so right...
men are so afraid to admit that they made mistakes... and we women are so madrama with admitting if we had committed... but yeah i haven't been in that situation since i don't have any to confess to. .. still bullied by the thought of " how about me!" ha! its as if like a shiet.. that movie wher beyonce' starred... hmmm yes dreamgirls... so right dream girls... go dream girl!.. and yer going to bump your head right there smack down... boink! what about me?.... martyrdom thus add to the awards of being a wife and a mother.. i had seen that coming yep... i grew up in a very very very dysfunctional family and yes im so prooud to say that because it helped me know the real deal fo life and my family?.. i so love them... thus the cycle of please no! martyrdom but for it has a twist... " pagusto ka!" as long as i have my baby... martyrdom in a horror scene where i let it slip and expect nothing to return... well it returns... and i hear no sorry.... poll questions?... shiet who would answer such poll questions from men?>.... dang!... brain freeze!... gdbye!...
thus the beginning of headaches and depressed moments.... if i were a boy....

If I were a boy I think I could understand How it feels to love a girl I swear I'd be a better man I'd listen to her 'Cause I know how it hurts When you lose the one you wanted 'Cause he's taking you for granted And everything you had got destroyed