20th.....

okey its the 20th day of november today and im like 8 days to go from my day....
what am i thinkng?......

i feel kinda fat. that is a big problem ..... since everyone knew that im big. so how could i say that im fat?... eng! im big fat!

i feel like a bunny rabbit in alice in wonderland so many things to do such little time have... still i beleive in the what we call grace... whooooo.... so i am holding on to that. but i don't have grace i only have renz and marie... so grateful for them both...

though sometimes renz makes me feel a bit meeting of my eyebrows and do raises my other brows.. still she is cute.. she is so renz. that makes her the renz i know like ten years ago?... aw noh.... eleven years ago....

she's been there for me eversince then.. ahhh she is soo renz... puts on spices on my days and even sometimes she makes it to the point of being cute. heheheh loveit!

marie... the ever brainy one... the cold stirrer i have during the time of being in heat... that would make me feel calm and cold. like her mom my other mommy... (winnks!) she knows how to put on the table cloth and there.... sob! and realize whatever there is to be...

goes one with my TPL friends... have done some blogs for them already so no need to stack it here again... they know they are someone special to me.. and always there to remind me and there to be my hand to hold on to and a shirt where i can sneeze my bugger! ... heeh joke! but sure they have been always an open arms .... also mommies.. and daddies i have... eventhough i had some funny and failed relationships... ahhh they have been like.. " segi alng whats best is yet to come or if its for you then it is for you... if not then act as if nothing happend.

hay.... 8 more days and i can still feel the two minds of what will happen to these?...
my friends.... my extended family..... heheeh... and then i have come to the conclusion of
they are still my friends ... i will always be the same... though there will come some changes but i know its for like another chapter of life i am trudging... trailing.... trekking... flying.... sailing on.... they will always be part of me... they are one of the important persons God has included in my beautiful love story... called LIFE....

daw mahibi ako... five years ago.. i have this dellima of wanting much of a baby... my own baby... bore by me... and now mixed... i dunno how am i gonna react... how am i gonna carry the baby in my womb... or what what what.... i know i have the ability to take care and be a great mom if not to be great at least i have to stand better on that coming another chapter of my life.... what if i cannot have a baby?... these some sorts of questions cyclones my head... still i pause and pray and ask for God's greatest grace and blessings, and for my tatay to guide me thru... i know that he has been a wonderful father to me... the reason why i was never afraid to face the realities and chalenges of life...

.... 8 days to go......