I won't put my hands up and surrender,I'm in love and always will be

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in pain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand --- lyrics from sting's desert rose...

im inlove and always will be...

i have this very unique circle of friends...
single for life women, married women, priests, deacons, seminarians, nuns, monks, deaf mute, alta social people, caregivers, gays, lesbians, single mothers, thier age varies from 8 years old up to 60 somethings.... its no difference after all.... only on how they view perspectives in life... how they cope with complexities of living... of how they love, of how they fall out of love, of how they manage to build strength for thier younglings' future... how they react to things of such human beings done that affects their beings.... of what matters to them..... of how it is dealt with much care and love and more of life's lessons after each unfolded chapter of their respective lives, of how God walks in and out of thier life... of how painful when death comes .... in their desperate time, in thier time of struggle towards life's joke.. i love sharing it with them... and i feel fulfilled with much awe and gratitude to know that i am part of it....
i never missed.... i never missed love..... i can pledge that there was never a time that i forgot the word love, the act fo love.... of how it manipulates my inner soul..... of how it cradles my being my existence..... ahhh love makes something out of me..... all beczuse i know that God realy exist.... fascinating feeling i have for these past few weeks.... i never felt any baggage of anger... i just let things happen as they are and accept them of what they become, what matters to me is that i know that i fully love.... and that knowing God's time is the perfect time.... that His purpose and plan are much far way much better than my plan.... everythings just falls into places for i know he is with me all the way!!! im in love always will be....
Ad majorem dei Gloriam!!! that in all things God may be Glorified.....

hoppa!!!

i never knew this is going to be true and the fulfillment of my dreams of becoming me...
others bloom when they reach the age of 18... that's why others got the grandous time of having their 18th birthday or debut as what it is usually called ...being capable to be on your own two feet emotionally and physically, being a proactive one does help a lot! without having trouble of waking up in the mroning trying to scour for food.... in its very mature sense of being 18. if you are in a family of a very traditional one well 18 surely does made lots of daddy's and mommy's cry even lola's and lolo's others even their aunts and uncles.... hmmmmm i like that... it's what we call family ties.... as for me i did celebrate my 18th bday together with my sister's graduation party.... the issue of being 18 as being independent wasn't brought up nor even made its way out of the topic of becoming one. instead it was just another ordinary day of my life for which i will have to play tug of war to my father and mother and even wrestle with my brothers and feel crap over my sistero of trying to be considered as adult! i never won until now i know i am not going to win with regards to quarrels and every idiosyncrastic things they brought in or out of the conversation...... i am plainly happy with the thought of i did my best.... some have it some ain't, but one thing for sure they are my family... and they care for me even more when i am down.... heheheheh... nd when im up they're their to shits things out.... nahhh just joking.... they love the achievements of whatever it is.... my family should i say one of the happiest family.....
specially being the youngest EY! i got to expereince more of life's battles life's cruelness.....
i have 5 older bro and 1 elder sis guess what my daily routine.???? "tagabili, tagasindi, taga tagay, tagaluto, tagalimpyo, tagapahid, taga mop sg suka sg hubog, taga bantay, tagahugasg ng pinggan and doloklon..... (knock on head!!!) kulusi-on(cute ko mo!), kalagison, wahhhh..... and then here comes my knight in its shiniest armore!!!!!! although he doesn't have that noble steed yet but he bangs the heads of my perpetrators..... and i got the chance to blurt my tongue and sometimes i got the chance of spit on them too!!!! hahahahha what a family.... i love it! and here's the catch on why are they doing that to me.... ( some even now that im 26!) i usually get my way!!! what me wants make sure me gets..... back then i got my father.... now that my father is on his final resting place.... i come out.... not so beautiful though but i know on my right i am!!!! dream on!!!! what you see you might not get!!!!!!!

goodmorning!!!!

that's the ussual routine people would hear from me whenever i come out of my room and the gate of my home be it a tri-sikad driver or just a plain neighborhood upto the place where i am supposed to be at....
this morning i took my bike with me and that was the transportation of the day... save cost of almost 100 pesos for today.... and am beginning to feel good about it again.. since i don't feel that much of heart breakin' health prob of mine.... i dunno what i did but i knew i shoved it all off down the drain (i hope!)hmmmmm.... i got to smile at last!!! wow!!! i got that very cute smile in my head down to my cheeks and phw!!! what a lovely night!!! i did made it straight 9hours of sleep..... i need that....
traffic infront of the office due to unresolved problem of traffic eh.... ohey!!! and the goverment has been on that prob eversince.... i don;t have thoughts about love and relationship for now becuz i don't have that for now... i dunno where it gone... perhaps its just there waiting to be digged!!!! i love you!!! that's all i know!!!

stop stop stop

to my government!!!! please!!!!
STOP DESTROYING FORESTS!
----SUPPORT A NATIONWIDE TOTAL COMMERCIAL LOG BAN IN NATURAL FORESTS
----STOP MINING IN OUR REMAINING FOREST AREAS AND PLANT NATIVE TREES
----DEVELOP AND SUPPORT SUSTAINABLE LIVELIHOOD OPTIONS FOR POOR UPLAND FOREST DWELLERS
----INCREASE BUDGET FOR COMMUNITY-BASED FOREST MANAGEMENT, WATERSHED PROTECTION, AND PROTECTED AREA MANAGEMENT .......

it has been freely given so please lets take care of it! its the last.... what if nature lashes back????

please..... please...... help us preserve.... and lets stop destroying our forest....

now what!

To be stupid, selfish and have good health are three requirements for happiness.

Though if stupidity is lacking all is lost.

If I would have the time to re think and re evaluate feeling and that life with the other, I could be happy, so sorry to say these but time is not even on my side. Life is simply extraordinary to live but love is more amazingly, fragile and very complex that one needs to decide as to what he really wants. Everyone is given that opportunity to do so. It’s a gift.

I am willing to take whatever circumstances that will come and hoping and praying that could and I will overcome such.

I am happy. With regards to my friend, he made a difference to my life and to my being.

the curse of being F!

hell yeah!!! i woke up as early as 6am this morning to make that very good ample time to prepare for my scheduled meeting at 9am. And whoa!!! i don't feel good about my being.... i am not that very good when it comes to being on time but usually i make it a point to be on time... in 10 scheduled meeting im positively on time 45%... hehehehe!!! flashbang!!! i was late 45minutes
becuz i was sucked up by my t.v. for which my higher boss calls it boob tube! took me almost 30min to wash myself, 15min to eat my breakfast that includes purefoods tender juicy hotdog(darn it!!! yaya did not cook it well!) boneless milkfish and rice... yeah no sunny side up or boiled eggs for me.... and them gulped a bottle of water to finish it all up ... brushed my teeth... shake my hair then put some powder, some eyeshadow and cheek tints lip gloss and spritz some estee' lauder (during this time still boob tube is on and been laughing and singing becuz it entertains me much that i knocked off the time..) then pick my black bag then off to meeting.... and yeah my boss is late and we all know that everybody has its reason ..... hmmm then start the meeting.... boring........ called up some clients just to avoid the fairy of boringness and the fairy of sleepyhead.... and then off for lunch with partner so i left the meeting earlier. great conversation with my partner over lunch, then i felt way too sleepy again... hmpf! what's going on with me??? my fairy sleepyhead did something again... i gained much weight since i haven't been on my bike lately for nearly 3weeks now and so i feel fatso!....

perhaps this will do.... this is love??? is it??

Love is like magic
And it always will be.
For love still remains
Life's sweet mystery!!
Love works in ways
That are wondrous and strange
And there's nothing in life
That love cannot change!!
Love can transform
The most commonplace
Into beauty and splendor
And sweetness and grace.
Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind!!
Love is the answer
That everyone seeks...
Love is the language,
That every heart speaks.
Love can't be bought,
It is priceless and free,
Love, like pure magic,
Is life's sweet mystery!!

- Helen Steiner Rice

of living in love....

We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive,
where every sense is heightened,
and every emotion is magnified.
Our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,
but that doesn't diminish its value,
because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds
and warming your soul.


---see this i got this from an unknown person..... who could have iumagined such a very simple words can make someone's heart beat fast???

even if we fail in love it is still love..... well i think it would be different if you were an opportunist in love.....
love is complex.....

i don't want to comment....

To be stupid, selfish and have good health are three requirements for happiness.

Though if stupidity is lacking all is lost.

If I would have the time to re think and re evaluates feeling and that life with this man, I could be happy, so sorry to say these but time is not even on my side. Life is simply extraordinary to live but love is more amazingly, fragile and very complex that one needs to decide as to what he really wants. Everyone is given that opportunity to do so. It’s a gift.

I am willing to take whatever circumstances that will come and hoping and praying that I could and I will overcome such.

I am happy. With regards to my friend, he made a difference to my life and to my being.

every season has its time......

and every time has its reason....

which reason knows nothing!

life is ...... love is.....making us all crazy!

send it now....

This is so very beautiful... i really love this song, the context and how it is being sung by sting...

SEND YOUR LOVE

Finding the world in the smallness of a grain of sand
And holding infinities in the palm of your hand
And Heaven's realms in the seedlings of this tiny flower
And eternities in the space of a single hour

Send your love into the future
Send your love into the distant dawn

Inside your mind is a relay station
A mission probe into the unknowing
We send a seed to a distant future
Then we can watch the galaxies growing

This ain't no time for doubting your power
This ain't no time for hiding your care
You're climbing down from an ivory tower
You've got a stake in the world we ought to share

You see the stars are moving so slowly
But still the earth is moving so fast
Can't you see the moon is so lonely
She's still trapped in the pain of the past

This is the time of the worlds colliding
This is the time of kingdoms falling
This is the time of the worlds dividing
Time to heed your call

Send your love into the future
Send your precious love into some distant time
And fix that wounded planet with the love of your healing
Send your love

Send your love

There's no religion but sex and music
There's no religion but sound and dancing
There's no religion but line and color
There's no religion but sacred trance

There's no religion but the endless ocean
There's no religion but the moon and stars
There's no religion but time and motion
There's no religion, just tribal scars

Throw a pebble in and watch the ocean
See the ripples vanish in the distance
It's just the same with all the emotions
It's just the same in every instance

There's no religion but the joys of rhythm
There's no religion but the rites of Spring
There's no religion in the path of hate
No prayer but the one I sing

Send your love into the future
Send your precious love into some distant time
And fix that wounded planet with the love of your healing
Send your love
Send your love

There's no religion but sex and music
There's no religion that's right or winning
There's no religion in the path of hatred
Ain't no prayer but the one I'm singing

Send your love
Send your love